Daily Comments #7- Just place to plant your thoughts. No feedback required.

Yay for spondi!!!!

You know you're Canadian when...

You know that the four seasons means: winter, still winter, almost winter, and road work/construction.

You know how to pronounce and spell "Saskatchewan"

You perk up when you hear the theme song from "Hockey Night in Canada."

You've ever had your tongue frozen to something.

Your snow blower gets stuck on the roof.

You frequently clean grease off your barbeque so the bears won't prowl on your deck.

You find -40C a little chilly. You can play road hockey on skates.

The municipality buys a Zamboni before a bus.

You understand the Labatt Blue commercials.

Getting over my cold thankfully

Since two days my friend isn't talking to me. He goes into his shell when upset. I tried to ask him what is disturbing him but he didn't say anything. I had low day yesterday. Other friend who was suppose to visit me didn't turned up.
I really want this friend of mine to talk to me.

Soup, My eldest son is like that and i had to learn to give him his own space and eventually he would talk to me about his thoughts or issues. Sometimes that took weeks, but I had to let him decide when to talk about it. Just smile when a friend needs one or hug when you feel like it. The talking will come at its own time.

Shut up birds

I dont think i'll be able to get to therapy next week

I honestly don't know what compels me to get out of bed in the morning.

In my mid-afternoon rut atm, when I've finished my chores and the day seems a bit overwhelming to fill with this things I don't necessarily "have" to do. I'm considering ringing/walking round to a local place that offers mental health support, but motivation is hard at the moment.

trying to do laundry with a doctor's restriction on lifting things, but, I need clean clothes for work.

There are 14 games on today's page alone, for some reason this bothers me.

I definitely cant get to therapy next week, unless i find a bus that goes there.

My ex found a new place to live, and I am relieved because she likes to wait till its almost too late to do things, then blames me and others when things dont go her way.
Whew!
The down side is now we have to get a deed in lieu of foreclosure...because the house won't sell for what we need it to and there are other factors making this necessary.
Just something ELSE to deal with

This!

Also, therapy is going to be wonderful today.

I am so ridiculous....I realized I have not seen my mother in over two and a half years because she called me a liar re: my mental health issues. Cptsd, anx, depression, panic, bereavement,agor....according to her, faking it. I have been in such a fog, it never even o curred to me until yesterday.

And I have been sitting here butt hurt for three weeks because no one from my "family" checked to see how I was doing.

What is wrong with me that I have been / could even be so hurt? Of course they/she wouldnt contact me. They dont believe anything is wrong medically ... and the rest of them are too worried about their money.

God forbid they reach out ... that would mean they acknowledge something is actually wrong.

And worse for them, that they are talking to each other and know I am sick and arent doing a thing about it.

That is how evil and conniving they are. If that got out to their circle, oh boy, big trouble for them, their shiny pretty fake reputations.

I want to see him again today. I hope he's there when I drop by

This will be my first work shift since my doc's orders not to lift heavy things for a week. This should be fun tonight. How do I determine what is "heavy" to me? How "heavy" is "heavy?"

I am trying so hard, i really am. I try to stay positive, i try not to worry too much. But its so darn difficult
I am sick and tired of always being the strong person, the person that people come to with their problems. Sometimes i want to shout "WHAT ABOUT ME???" nobody is ever there for ME, i always have to do it all by myself and i am sick of it. It wearing me down.
Rant over.

The first positive thought you should be working on is the fact that the body enables us to cry or vent when we need to to keep it strong and release the stress. Allowing yourself to say NO is your power. When you permit yourself to say NO to others and not feel guilty for it, you will have accomplished a major step in healing for yourself.

going to the therapist in the morning to discuss (what she calls) my eating disorder.

Some..."gentleman"...made a really sweet waitress at my local Waffle House cry this evening over a situation in which she had virtually no control. This waitress has been nothing but polite and friendly to myself and my group of friends, and this (your word here's) behavior was entirely uncalled for.

I'm not saying I hope he catches fire or anything, but I'm not going to overexert myself putting him out.

Thanks so much NN, i really appreciate the answer
It's a work in progress, saying NO..i will get there, i am sure. I was just feeling very overwhelmed.

So much better today!

It's horrible how i can go from the pits of despair to 'normal' and back down again,so quickly!

There must be some sort of kinship we all have cause it seems like many of us have the mood/emotional swings together.
I am swinging low and really need to get back on the upswing....BUT....
its really hard to do when your ex is in one of her "remember this is all YOUR fault" moods.
She has made some rather, well, stupid decisions with her money since we split up and its caught up to her and now she wants MORE money since its my fault we split in the first place.
There is just nothing I can say here. I am tired and depressed and just want to cry myself to sleep. So done with it all. I already gave her every GD thing I had, but as usual, even that is just not enough for her.