Daily Comments #7- Just place to plant your thoughts. No feedback required.

I am glad today is Friday!

Why is it that many of the most vocal become the most silent when injustice is observed?

My car is twittering like a bird! Darn belt must be loose... Ugh, I hate car problems...

why does something that happened years ago still hurt now? i can't stop crying over this and i'll be talking about it with my T soon and i don't know how to face this

I know I had a nightmare last night. I woke up thrashing, pushed my lover away. For some reason the ability to remember my dreams has been slipping away lately. Perhaps I've just been too focused on 'doing' in the morning. I miss remembering...

One by one, ever so slowly, some very wrong things that people tried so hard to impress upon me are finally being overturned, and proven wrong...they are concepts or pronouncements made that have been tumbling around in this brain of mine for far too long, notions which I have had such a hard time getting past...stupid, unenlightened, troubling things which made me feel very badly about myself for far too long!!...

Thank goodness they are finally dropping away, and I can discard them for good.

Well that is a messed up Friday...

Why do I want see how ending turns out?

It's saturday

where am I heading...going to turn an year older...no permanent job .no scope of studying ahead, no marraige....i just don't know where I am going.

Another thought on the rolling home; how does that work for the cat box?,,,,,,,,,,,

I don't think a kitty box would be a good idea in the rolling home

think of the poor kitty if so (lol)

Woke up with the blahs.
I wouldnt call it depressed...just blah.
I am tired and even after 7 hours of sleep I am still a bit run down.
I have been keeping busy painting my daughters room and ex's new place.
I know its time for me to move on...daughter doesnt want either of us to get new mates, she wants us back together. I just don't us reconciling.
I am considering a room share to cut my expenses even more. I have so much financial ruin to fix. Ugh!

I there such thing as life burnout? If so, I have it. No matter what I do or think, my life does not change for the better. It's just more sadness only different. There is something missing in me that makes me less than others. I don't have a nurturing childhood to fall back on. There is no internal core of happiness that shines. Only darkness. And, there are no cures. I need a cure.

I don't really know. I am trying to let life flow through me rather than trying to use it as this set thing that I can use like a tool and try to control. Change is constant. I need space, time, energy to heal. I need that flow to be unfettered. I need to step aside, sit in a comfortable position, and breathe. Let it happen. Just breathe.

LOL

Hmmmmmmmm. Nice cool, windy day. Overcast. It's the full moon tonight. Love it.

I wish it wasn't so gray out. I particulary need some sun today.

just a useless person. feel so helpless when i couldn't help my friend.

and worst of all, i had to trouble people. to those who was in chat esp sandworm and krisa, thank you T________T

Peonies are roses without the thorns

Even Leo left the Romper Room.

Feeling pretty disillusioned though I'm sure I shouldn't be. Still...

...what does one do?...Oh, I know...

Trudge on. There ain't lead in the heels n' stones in the pockets all the time.

Yeah and harbour no ill enroute...because shite just happens...got it? It just does.

Shouldn't be a surprise.

Hence fair easy to hurdle...or could be...

If one just keeps 'em bright, wide open and [remember this]...uses a little foresight.

Oh yes.

Hindsights revelation right there. Bingo.

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Huh.

I still feel like flinging verbal muck over the roofs and on into the skies...

It'll pass.

It'll be ok.

Now then...$#$@%@ world...I need some sleep.

I understand your problem with those particular little guys on the other hand - I would be asking you - like - if I were there speaking - "Where are their Parents - is there a sitter to supervise". You see yourself "Tormented and Tortured" and you are glad to be moving out - I too, am glad for you and offer my best wishes to be happy in your new place. I empathize with you because I have had the same trouble and have often moved because of non compliance on the part of Parents/ Management I wish you well

Today I had plans to go out of town for the first time in many, many months. But, I could not bring myself to do it. I don't know why I feel so worthless that I can't treat myself to a nice day.

I have decided to do much needed chores instead like clean my apartment. I don't understand myself at all.

I am very confuzzled over things that have happened in the last 12 hours or so.
Someone I thought I knew turned out to be a thief, and another friend was nearly assaulted on a date!
SMH and trying to make sense of things that truly make NO sense!