How Are You Feeling Right Now? #2

Like I want to grab my rainbow blanket and jump off a cliff while screaming obscenities and try to use the rainbow as wings. Also feeling like maybe I shouldn't have stole that shopping cart last night but it's in my attic now where I live in a cardboard box and I filled the cart with fuzzy blankets so I can sit in it and cry with a bottle of rum.

Horrible. Simply terrible.

Like a not very nice guy...

Very bad that I had to call out a loan officer and point out her bad advice. Yet, I'm the one feeling guilty. Imagine that. Smh...

Lonely, emotional, cozy, sad, tired, inspired, anxious. But working though it slowly, so I'm grooving through the mud.

Chillhop music is easing the edges

Alone. Utterly alone. I miss my friend so much!

Missing someone....still anxious.... uncertain of my future and feeling insecure about my abilities at work. Worried they will fire me once they see I don't really know what I am doing... I should have more confidence. Worried about finding a good enough place to live.. the apartment I looked at the other day was a total mess, dirty and ugly. UGH. I am desperate for a place to live, but I really don't want to live there. Wishing life could just be a little easier.

Exhausted. My neighbor is noisy. Didn't fall asleep till after 2am and he woke me up at 5. I have the busiest day of work I have had in a long time and I have to do it on no sleep? Great. Just great.

Worried about my mom’s health. Things are bleak in regards to her cancer. Tired. And it’s only Tuesday. This winter is totally gloomy plus way too cold. I can’t wait for the spring!

Anxious, sad, lonely. Can't stop thinking about my past relationship recently and how much I miss and love that person.
Also grateful, especially for my dog and my family.

Pretty flat. Nothing really to complain or worry about, no caffeine or alcohol in my system. Just here. Existing. I guess this is what normal life is.

I actually feel quite happy. After years of shame-driven denial (a shame based upon implicit biases towards homosexuality), the overwhelming fear of finally allowing myself to analyze that aspect of my psyche, and the even scarier movement from "Perhaps I have lesbian tendencies" to "Perhaps I'm ever-so-slightly gay-ish" to "I'm probably a lesbian" to "I'm not comfortable with relationships at this moment in my life, but perhaps I'll meet a woman in the future because-a woman, because I'm a lesbian." When I finally accepted my sexuality, it felt like a happy sort of relief. I feel lighter overall and as though I would like to smile. I must now dissect my biases and my problems with intimacy, things which I could never do without that very important first step of allowing myself to be honest with my feelings, both past and present.

Much better than earlier. Thank God. Although it may have something to do with the fact that its night time.

Is "meh" a feeling?

Completely drained, struggling just to sit up straight

Funny. Not haha funny but, just...I don't know. I've never met another like me who fantasizes on a deep level and deep down feels as I feel about how a certain thing should be. I don't really no what to think.

Hungry. Pizza. Eat food. Brain no function well without.

Physically I feel crummy—sick with a cold. Maybe a mild flu. I have been sleeping a lot.

I’m feeling despondent for some reason. I decided to come here (I’d taken sporadic breaks recently) and give support and maybe receive some, too.

Also, my eating disorder is really out of control right now and I’m scared. I pretend like it doesn’t exist but what a joke.

I forget who I've told my recipe to for sure fire of viral infections like that--

Throat Coat Tea--potent anti-viral licorice root extract is in it, along with a few other things
Starlight Peppermint Candies--peppermint is another potent antiviral and expectorant
Organix Cough Drops--work better than halls and none of that nasty after flavor
Oikos Greek Yogurt--build up your immune system in your intestines. Feel free to add more fruit to it--I usually add strawberries into the black cherry flavor.

As for me...eh...I endure. I'm like the sphinx.

I feel pretty decent. But of course when I do, I either have no money to do anything or no one is around. Better not think about that too much or i will bum myself out.

Having a good day. Feeling content.

in my man personality, so chasing little girl in playgrounds

Feeling okay today. It is my first day to cut sugar out of my diet though, so I know my mood will be affected soon