How are you feeling right now #3

Bilious rage.

I am feeling ok this morning.

Super stressed, and angry. Work is being ridiculously stupid. They want us to do in-depth research tasks, but aren't giving us time - and we only have 2 people who do research at all. Now, I'm trying to get a presentation ready for execs at the end of the week, I don't even have all the data, my workload just got quadrupled (I thought I was only doing one part, but I'm doing like 4!) and it's just too much. I want to cry. My head hurts. My attempts at a healthy diet just went flying right out the window (chocolate at 9am!) I'm upset that they have no sense, that my leadership isn't actually concerned with giving us time to do a good job, and that everyone is just like, "I don't care, just get it done." There aren't enough hours in the day, and it's affecting my health and my poor, unhappy brain. Not happy at all right now.

Panicky. Rent is due today and I'm $275 short. Next paycheck isn't until Friday. I have to hope my parents can spare that much money until I can pay them back on Friday. If not, I have to hope my landlord will give me a break. It will be the first time since living here almost 3 years now that I will have been late, so hopefully that buys me some leeway.

This isn't helping the slight panic I already had from wondering if friend would talk to me today. He hasn't yet. So more panic and hopeless feelings thinking he won't say anything to me ever again.

Jealousy. Your friend is either A: the luckiest person on earth; B: stupid for not seeing what he has sitting in front of him (hint: It's knocking at the door, dummy); or C: both.

Tired. I cannot learn enough fast enough. And nothing inspires me. So...ennui?

like chit

I'm a mess tho, so I don't exactly make it easy on him. If he gives up I don't blame him. If he comes back I won't be able to fully stop what causes these big issues no matter how hard I try, I'm just too broken. Best I'm able to do is hold it off for some time.

7 hours later aaaand I'm still in a panic that was just made worse because I was woken up by someone knocking on my or my neighbor's door at 4:30am... And it sounded like it was my door. I live upstairs in a house that was converted into 2 apartments so sometimes it's hard to tell. Why was someone at either door though? I was sleeping so not making noise to bug someone, I peeked outside a bit later and see nothing is wrong, so I'm just confused and scared.

I also made the mistake of peeking at the chat program to see if friend was there and he's online this morning, so still hasn't deleted me and now I'm hoping he'll say something but probably not because it seems like one of those really bad days already.

Tired....

I’m feeling kind of crabby.

Anxiety and lonely feels are through the roof. I broke the silence first. Such a dumb idea. He's just ignoring me and it's making me feel worse. I just wanna go to sleep and never wake up.

Kind of disappointed.

I’m feeling kind of bugged about something that may or may not have happened at work.

Overwhelmed, anxious, drained and tired

Basically indifference towards just about everything. One big state of meh.

I'm excited! I just ordered my new mattress. After years and years and years of research, thinking, planning, trying to figure out what to get. No clue when it will get here, I'm doing "white glove delivery" so they'll need to send it to someone locally who can deliver it here, but I'm happy. And hopefully. And a little nervous. But definitely feeling like a weight has been lifted!

Frustrated trying to meet new people but I'm injured and cant do anything. Meetup isn't very helpful since I hardly see any clubs with people my age there

Tired,sad and lonely......I want love,attention and companionship.

Better. I'm cooling down with some salad. I'd eaten ice cream earlier and it turned me into an emotional mess.

like a failure right now

like I want to overeat

Up and down, Kind of in a pit, trying not to sink too low. Coping and functioning, but not fully.

I feel good just came back from a short bike ride to the dog park

I feel on top of the world!

Tired. Alone. Anxious. Hurting. Pretty much the norm nowadays.