How are you feeling right now #3

Extremely anxious and hurt. Friend was supposed to be on to talk to me before the high, he only just got on within the last half hour and hasn't said anything to me. I did say he didn't have to talk to me if he would be too busy or didn't feel up to it, so it's possible he's using that option. It still hurts. I shouldn't have said that. I guess I need to just bottle everything up and work towards numbness. I'm so tired of feeling like this. I want to feel nothing.

I am feeling really low,I feel overwhelmed with all that I have to do on a daily basis.I must make time for exercise,yoga and to do some art,we agreed I would with my therapist.I can't help but feel sad about not having love,attention and companionship.I am scared that I will always be alone but that might not be the case.I might find love before I die.

Today I had to sort the kitchen out again.I had to empty the fridge freezer and defrost it,cos it is being taken away and a new one being delivered tomorrow,I am quite pleased about that...the old one was over icing and freezing the vegetables in the fridge.

I am trying not to be depressed but that is something I do not have much control over,all I can do is ride over the dark times and pray,I pray I will feel brighter and more positive tomorrow and sometimes that works for me.

Today was my last day off (vacation) - and I woke up with a headache. Headache all day, mostly laid around in bed and played on the kindle or watched TV. I feel kind of crappy and depressed. Not looking forward to going back to work tomorrow - there was a ton of drama last week when I left for the holiday, and I hope that the people involved figured it out (a couple of them were using me as a stand-in therapist, which I am really not well-suited for! It was exhausting!)

I wanted to work on eating better (less sugar) today and exercise, but my head still hurts... the thought of trying to exercise doesn't seem like it would make me feel any better... though a nice warm shower before bed might help.

At least there are only 2 days before the weekend.

I'm also in a bit of a panic... I'm going Monday for a brain mapping with a new neurofeedback person that I met this week. I liked her, but I'm freaking out now... mostly I'm worried that the neurofeedback to "relax" parts of my brain will end up flooding me with crappy memories that I've successfully suppressed, making me non-functional

I don't know what else to do though.. I don't want meds, and therapy has not helped at all. This seems like something that could get me to a better place, which would be amazing. But, omg... the anxiety!

Amused with myself. Bought a mini SNES classic with 21 games. Half hour later, it now has 100 games.

I want the toilet

but too lazy to get up

Annoyed, my dogs and husband are being SUPER bossy this evening.

I am physically overtired,I did too much today,that has caused my mood to plummet,so I am in deep depression.My body is overactive and I can't relax,I did a lot yesterday too,I had a new fridge freezer delivered.The old one leaked rusty water all over the hall carpet while they were taking it away.I had to clean the carpet by hand,then put the frozen foods and veg back in new fridge freezer and rearrange stuff in the kitchen.Then a food shop was delivered and I put it away.Meanwhile I was ringing my mother regularly throughout the day as she has full time carers now and has gone blind so she needs us to keep in touch often.Today I took the cat to the vets and went and got some bits I needed from the shops.I am so tired and as I said I can't relax,I am overtired,I am also upset because I lost my glasses,and I still have a few busy days coming up.I feel like **** but I am doing everything that has to be done!

pretty good about myself

just emailed someone standing up for myself- and something I didn't approve of

Bouncing off the walls happy and excited!!!

Refreshed, just washed my hair.

I’m tired but In a good mood.

I`m feeling down and unmotivated today. I just woke up feeling bad today. I guess it`s just one of those days.

I feel good came back from a coffee and bike ride

I felt good I found my glasses so they are not lost after all.I feel glad cos I got all the chores that I wanted to get done,done today.I also had a shower and am relaxing now.i got tired out again though,today and especially yesterday when I visited my mum from 10.30am until 8pm,I stayed too long and regretted it after,but my mum needed reassurance cos her carers are new and aren't sure what they are doing yet.But I got exhausted and I was there so long and hardly ate.I need more rest than I have time for I have to do all my own chores and cook for mum a couple of healthy meals a week.My sister says we can't be expected to do too much for mum that's why we have carers in.My sister is right mum's needs are complex she needs help with everything,she can't walk and she is blind and she need help to go to the toilet,she needs to be fed,everything needs doing for her.It is too exhausting for us.We will just visit and do her bills,shopping and cleaning.I hated myself for not being able to do it all for mum,I actually felt inadequate and hatred for myself cos I feel I have let my mum down.I am going to see what my therapist thinks and how she can reassure me I am not bad person for not being healthy and strong enough to look after my mum in her old age.

So I feel good,and I feel bad at the same time today.I need more physical energy,strength and stamina,there is too much to do and I am getting physically very tired.

I’m feeling better. For awhile I thought my heart was going to throw up after the large latte and large surge.

Lonely and confused.

I am feeling a bit lost emotionally but I feel I am making progress,my therapist is a great help and I am more confident socially.

I'm feeling good. I had a good group (therapy) today and then went to meet up with a friend who I'm just getting to know. They're really cool and I enjoyed spending time with them a lot! Now I'm eating an apple at my apt.

Very tired.

I feel good

Tired and weary,fed up!

Feeling Ok

Ok and staying inside due to rainy, chilly weather and like to walk usually. Thunder heard earlier so being cautious due to possible lightning.

I don’t feel good. My stomach and my head hurt. And I’m sweating. I can’t think of anything at this exact moment I’m anxious about. I have Tomorrow off so it’s not the night before work anxiety I get. Maybe I’m getting sick. Or else I’m just tired.

Should have gone to bed At Least 2 hours ago. Perseverating. Anxious.