How are you feeling right now #6?

After last post above I spent an hour and a half cleaning the kitchen,mopping the floor,washing dirty dishes and dirty recycling tins and mopping the floor
and I sat the recycling bag full up outside and the black bin sack too,tomorrow I will put them on the boundary for the bin men to collect on Tuesday.
You know what,I felt really lifted and cleansed having done all that and I can rest now.Tomorrow I can get the rest of the chores done.They say that cleanliness is next to
Godliness,I do feel loved and uplifted for having made the effort and getting the kitchen clean tonight instead of leaving it a mess till tomorrow.
I am a bit sad and lonely but not as bad as 7 years ago when being alone equaled not feeling safe and security was on my mind that I couldn't look after myself and stay safe.
I got seriously distressed with abandonment feelings like when I had to walk to school and home alone aged 5 and always was alone home from school and fending for myself,home alone and making instant mash out of a packet and opening a tin of baked beans for tea,aged 10.Those feelings from childhood still surface and I am 56 years old in March this year,I don't feel that old,my inner self still feels 24 years old,weird that,but obviously I am more mature and cultured now than when I was aged 24.

Aaw, big hugs to you @marilyn. You're such a battler and you go through so much, like a lot of us on here. I'd just like you to know I'm always wishing you well, good person.

I'm feeling.....bad***

I got to work this morning and was met at the door by the manager. He said “ so, we don’t actually need you today. The other manager tried calling you.” Um. Ok. I went to check my schedule because I wasn’t sure if I was working tomorrow. I am not but I offered to come in. He said that would be great. My mom had just left the parking lot when I called her to turn around. Frankly I am glad they told me to come in tomorrow instead.I have a therapy appointment and doctors appointment today I’m pretty nervous about.

Anxious this morning

Feeling a little sad right now.

Feeling anxious. I see my psychiatrist soon. Hopefully she'll increase my med dosage without having to have a CT head scan as requested by the neurologist.

I feel good this afternoon

I feel anxious and quite low,the day today has dragged,I have not felt like doing anything but I have also been bored.
I get so low because of being lonely and alone most of the time.I can't focus on anything else cos nothing consoles me.I just know I will be alone for the rest
of my life,I must be unlovable.

Sad that Philly local Kobe Bryant, his daughter and 7 others passed from a helicopter crash. He was a hero to my hometown. Great basektball player, one of the best.

Really tired right now, but thankfully not psychotic right now.

Mixed emotions this morning

A little sad.

Moderately good, whatever that means.

Feeling okay.

Tired from cooking class

Pretty dysphoric...

I feel really sick to my stomach right now.

I'm feeling okay. Had something nice to eat to reinvigorate my system.

Tired from helping out in A&E because of staff shortage.

I am feeling overwhelmed,was anxious,upset and full of worry yesterday.Got a letter saying %G would be installed in my street soon.I have heard disturbing rumors of radiation contamination around 5G which causes strokes,heart attacks,cancer,blindness,so worried about my health and that of my pet cats.
We haven't had 5G in the UK until now,reports from US include death of birds and bees and rises in cancer rates and also newspapers report that rich gated communities in the US have been granted exemptions ,meaning they don't have to have 5G installed in their neighborhoods. Have any of you experienced 5G and do you have anything to report,do you think it is harmful or harmless?

Refreshed having rested well.

Over-tired, not been to bed yet, it's 3:45 a.m. Technology addiction. I MUST get off internet and go to sleep.

It’s been over 17 hours since I’ve eaten something and it’s almost 7 in the morning so I guess I should eat something before my mom comes downstairs so she doesn’t think I’m crabby. I don’t feel crabby yet though.

Depressed this morning