*puts every body part in this thread in case anyone needs any*

[divine1966]

What do you mean???

[SlumberKitty]

willowtigger it's nice of you to want to help others by donating your body parts, and you certainly can do this in real life by becoming an organ donor when the time naturally occurs. In CA we can do this on our driver's license. Not sure where you live if it is the same.

But what is troubling to me willowtigger is how little you think of yourself. Right now you need these body parts. And they need you. You need them to function. No one is going to like you less because you are whole. People like you because you are kind. But the amount of beating yourself up verbally and referring to yourself in ways that suggest you think you are worthless is difficult for me at least to read. Because I care about you, as I am sure many others on this site do. I'd like to challenge you to think of three good things about you every day and write them in a journal so you could refer back to them. I'll even give you the first one: Willowtigger is a good friend.

Hang in there. You're okay here. No one is going to hurt you on purpose and you are a valued part of our community. HUGS Kit

[Breaking Dawn]

Dear willowtigger, I love so much what Kit just said. So beautifully put, the way it is, so true. I can't add anything to it. It makes me feel sad sometimes & I wonder who made you feel this way about yourself. God bless you, dear wonderful willowtigger!

there's been more people teach me that i'm worth less than everyone else, than worth as much as anyone else

if that makes sense idk

bullies cause of the learning problems etc that i have, a family member deciding i'm a hoe cause of something that happened, dad cause girls are not good enough for that sexist missoginist (spelling) pig (no offence meant to the pigs that oink), stepdad cause learning difficulties mean i'm not good enough, think it would be faster to say who *does* think that i'm enough

sigh .........

[Breaking Dawn]

Originally Posted by willowtigger

there's been more people teach me that i'm worth less than everyone else, than worth as much as anyone else

if that makes sense idk

bullies cause of the learning problems etc that i have, a family member deciding i'm a hoe cause of something that happened, dad cause girls are not good enough for that sexist missoginist (spelling) pig (no offence meant to the pigs that oink), stepdad cause learning difficulties mean i'm not good enough, think it would be faster to say who *does* think that i'm enough

sigh .........

stepdad would hit me on the head for getting stuff wrong, he was one of the yellers, dad was a yeller and would tell me just cause i'm female i will never be good enough

[SlumberKitty]

willowtigger, stop listening to those voices in your head that tell you that you aren't good enough. Those people who hurt you were not good enough to see your value. Just because people have treated you badly, does not mean that you should continue to treat yourself badly. That means "they" win. No. That's not right. You win. Because you matter. Don't continue to give into those voices of people who hurt you. The amount that you tear yourself down, from what I have seen here on the forum, is probably worse than anyone has done to you. I understand that mindset. I used to have it myself. That if I was going to be hurt, that I would be the one to do it, and I would hurt myself so well that I would never have to fear hurt from someone else. But you know what, I was wrong to think that way and to hurt myself. I matter. I have value. It sometimes hurts me to read your posts because of the amount that you tear yourself down. I wish I could send you all the rainbows and smiles and hugs and hearts in the whole world so you could feel the care and concern and wellbeing and love we all wish for you. But you should start loving yourself too. Do acts of kindness for yourself. Treat yourself once in a while. Love that inner child that needed love, caring, and nurturing and didn't get it. By loving that inner child, you will eventually feel less of the pain because you will start to heal. I don't know if you have a therapist but maybe you want to think about getting one. There are techniques they can do to help with your thoughts so that you don't constantly give into negative thoughts. One such technique is called Cognitive Behavioral Therapy or CBT. If you cannot afford a therapist, there are some CBT workbooks out there. Or you could even try the Woebot app on your smartphone. It will help you reframe negative thoughts. By reinforcing those negative thoughts all the time, you are making a self-fulfilling prophecy. I wish you could see your worth. I wish you could see your value. But no one can do it for you. You have to hold up that mirror to yourself and say I am worth it. I am valuable. Because you are. HUGS Kit

[Fuzzybear]

Lesson they all taught me, the times they was nice: "they build you up so they can tear you down"

So there's no point in trying to raise self esteem

[AliceKate]

You have a good taste in cats