Checking in: how are you?

I feel ok. The dryer kept interfering with my sleep and causing these weird trippy episodes. Then I woke up with heartburn. I feel better now and the dryer has stopped.

Had a good day. Really trying not to think about work

Discombobulated had my alarm wake me this morning. I’m having a ton of trouble sleeping and wake later and. Later. So had the alarm wake me this morning to reset this trend. My head is buzzing and I’m feeling buzzed. Had an end of the world dream last night.

Lonely, I think. I want to spend the NYE with somebody, but I don’t have many friends or acquaintances here. The locals that I know spend their time with their families or relatives. The other incomers like me have no interest to celebrate. This is one of the rare moments when I wish to be at work, so I have someone to talk with.

School is cancelled again and it probably will be again later this week. I don't get how kids these days are supposed to get an education. With Covid happening and then school being cancelled when it is just mildly cold or snowy outside.

I just know it would have helped me out an awful lot to have more than half the winter off from school when I was a kid.

Yeah I am bitter right now, Sheila.

Lol that commericial was just on.

I'm tired and low energy.

Can’t complain. I did want a few minutes to sleep but my 5 year old wouldn’t have a bar of it.

I'm fine. Nothing really out of the ordinary.

After a rough day yesterday, I am much better.

Meant to be taking my son to the beach today. Idk what I feel like doing….

Pretty good today. Slept better, got up earlier and went down to join others for games then a movie.

Hanging in there.

It’s Friday and Monday is just around the corner….

Cried a lot eventually. Eleven years of horror and i didnt use to be the type of person to look in the past. I am so so angry at myself and helpless

Been awake for about 2 hours. Coffee was good and breakfast was okay. Almond muesli of sorts with an orange Ive just eaten. Life is good.

My mind is muddy and my concentration is poor but my anxiety and depression are ok mostly.

I try to think of this, but it's blank. I do not know if I should use the word content or miserable. I know my body is tired, and cold.

Last night was rough, but I realize I can't wake up with negativity if I expect to have a good day. Going to get my day started positively and take care of myself this morning.

Otherwise, I feel pretty good.

My anxiety and depression are ok today. I'm in a bit of a mood and I'm still pretty tired. But its not like how things were last week.

Taught my first 2 lessons of the year. Omg. Amazing!

currently feeling a bit bad for eating too much chocolate before dinner

my poor body isn't coping with it too well..

Is it withdrawels or something else today. I'm in bed with the curtains closed and the TV off and all my blankets on today. Mental health wise I'm ok overall I guess.

My father passed away a year and a half ago, and we moved my mother "kicking and screaming" across 2 states to be with us so we could take care of her. She is miserable, refuses to see a counselor, claiming psychology is witchcraft. This feels especially hurtful since I am a counselor myself. Furthermore, she claims that people bring demons into our church. She has no friends of course, because who would want to be friends with her when she's like that? And she complains because my family goes "out and about", which only affects her if we go away for a whole week because she only spends weekends with us anyway. We have tried giving her more time with us, but then she complained about that. I have tried 2 weeks in a row to confront her and put my foot down since she is codependent and taught me to be codependent (although I'm learning to free myself from it), but she refuses to think any differently and says I'm the crazy one.

ILuvSwords welcome to MSF. I am sorry mom is so difficult.

Having gone through this whole experience, my wisdom on the subject is scarce but here goes.

These are the good ole days. No matter how bad today seems this may seem relatively good in the future which means things are not getting better.

I never put my foot down with my mother. She was in charge and no one could tell her what to do. I let her think that and never tried to confront her. Instead I gave her options and told her the consequences of each and let her decide.

You can get through this.
CANDC

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Great! Doing pretty well 😊

Welcome swords. Your mum sounds like a handful, make sure to care for yourself during this difficult period.