Your attention please!

MyBestKids2, any day is a good day to hear from you...today, tomorrow...thanks for taking the time to say hello tonight. Klonopin does tend to make one tired. I hope you are able to relax and enjoy it. Well, I don't mean enjoy it like you are on a vacation. I understand you take it for a reason and I hope it is helping. But, my doctor once told me...if you are taking it like you are suppose to, and it makes you feel a little good, well that just a bonus--enjoy and don't feel guilty. Sometimes, klonopin makes me feel a little good, but it also makes me tired....really, I wish I never had to take anything like that...I would give up the little bit of "good" for just not needing it. There are other things in my life I would rather be doing...but, sometimes, taking the klonopin is the only thing that saves me from my anxiety. I hope it is helping you tonight for whatever you need it for...my hope for you is that you eventually won't need them...although, I have come to the conclusion that I might need meds for the rest of my life...but, I can always hope that you and me will eventually live life without them...be free....you just never know. It is good to keep the dream alive and to keep working towards it....I won't be disappointed if I never get there, but I will always keep the faith that it might just happen some day.

Hi! You sure sound good for not getting much sleep. I usually do something embarrassing. Hang in there.

Doh...lols, I do plenty of silly things when I am not sleeping...I just have not told you about them. I think it is easy to make myself "look good" by selecting what I choose to write about. Maybe you are the stronger person because you admit it. Thanks for taking the time to write. I will keep hanging in here...but it sure is easier when I have people like you telling me to hold on....

Well, the night has passed me by...it is 4:30 AM and I am suppose to get up in a couple hours. But, to get up, I would have to go to bed. I think I will just take a nice long hot shower and head to work early.

I sure appreciate everybody who took the time and energy to give me a little support. Well, I should not call it little--I got a bunch of wonderful support. Just what I needed...some attention in a good way.

I feel a tad selfish because I have primarily focused on me and my needs tonight. So, I will try to repay you all when you need a little attention or a hug. Just don't be afraid to ask me for it...matter of fact, I hope we can all ask for whatever we need, whenever we need it. I know I don't need to "repay" you--you gave me support out of the goodness of your heart. For that, I am incredibly grateful. I just hope I can offer you as much as you have given me.

Everybody have an absolutely wonderful day...or, at least laugh a little...not all days are going to be great, but sometimes, it helps to smile or laugh regardless of how crappy things seem to be. And, seeings how I am on night 11 of very little sleep, I am going to be smiling and laughing just to keep myself sane.

HI DPM!

I just found this thread, so I'm sorry I didn't see it sooner.

Its really nice to hear your feeling better - and yes, i know like you said that usually means a crash is to follow, but for the moment, at least its not feeling down. Do follow up with your doc of course.

I am having a good day - Jeremy and I just spent a good hour laughing back and forth. Hes quite the card now a days - I'll have to post some pics and vids when I get my camera fixed.

How are you now? How are things?

Just sayng hi!

unfortunately ive fallen back into the abyss so to speak...im eating too much, depressed, and working too many hours...

me, my wife, and our 3 year old are headed to Indianapolis over the weekend to see my brother....his son is getting his Eagle Scout and we are going to the ceremony...were hoping to take our son to the Childrens museum as well....

im glad your doing well DePressMe....dont feel selfish for enjoying life and all its rewards....im happy for you!

I wish I could be more positive about my situation, but im hopelessly convinced im doomed to despair for all my days......wait did I take my meds this morning?.....crap

Brian

De Me ,,,, Hey >>> coolio .... Find a strong headwind and face it ,, let the rest that is sure to come ..... give you the calm .

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{ HUGS }}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}.

Hey Rainbowzz...well, I am feeling the effects of no sleep. I am worn out and yet, I don't see the possibility of me getting to sleep anytime soon.

Cool about Jeremy...kids can be loads of fun. I am glad you got to laugh with him for an hour. I hope you remember that in all the up and coming years of stepping on legos in the middle of the night and picking cherios out of the carpet...lols. I don't have kids, so I can only imagine the absolute joy of laughing with your son...of course, I will never step on a lego in the middle of the night or have to pick cherios out of my carpet. But, I think I'd walk across a burning pit of glass for the experience you have had with your son--even if I only got an hour--it would be worth it.

Thanks for sharing part of your day with me...give Jeremy a big kiss and tell him it came from DePressMe. He'll probably just laugh at you, but, hey, the sounds of a happy baby are some of the best sounds a person can hear...I will be listening...

Hi Brian! Let's see, eating too much, working too much, depressed...yeah, that is the abyss--I remember it all too well. If I could, I would send you a little bit of the energy I am feeling right now--really a little bit of it is good--I think my problem is I have too much of it at the moment. So, if both of us got together and split things 50-50 we would both probably be happy as heck.

Oh, Indianapolis...can't say I miss much about that city. Every time I was there, I ended up in a sleazy bar or a crack house. I guess you probably won't be going to either of those, so maybe your visit will go a little better than mine have. Oh, yes, I almost forgot, I did go to the Children's museum. That was an absolute blast! I have no idea if it really is a good place to go, I was tripping on acid, so, heck, I could have been in the McDonald's playground and had a blast. Maybe, some day I should go check out the museum to see if it really is all those funky colors that I remember it to be....some how, I doubt it.

No, really, I hope you can manage to shake the depression enough to enjoy your visit. If that means taking your meds, well, then...I hope you take your meds. Although I can't really give advice in this area because I have not been so responsible about taking mine. Hence, my mania...yes, part of it feels good, but I am about ready for the ride to end...I need a little peace.

Thanks for writing...thanks for taking the time to care about me.

Hey WMD! Yeah, if I could manage to sit still long enough to let that headwind do its magic, I'd probably feel a lot better. Right now, I am moving so fast, the wind can't keep up with me. Thanks for the hug...I can always count on you for a good hug!

Hey DPM - just found this thread - don't know how I missed it before. Glad things are good for you right now, but at the same time I hope that you get your meds sorted with your doc. so that you can get some sleep and don't crash real bad.

I'm looking forward to the long weekend - nothing exciting haircut, cleaning, and probably some harp practice. But when I get back to work next week it'll be absolute hell breaking loose all over the place. Some idiot in corporate controlling decided that it would be fun to have the first round of budget submissions due the day after month end, and the first pass at 09 expenses 3 days later. At least I can't claim I'm bored anymore.

I''ve been asked to speak at an AA meeting. I agreed but am a little freaked out by the prospect. Not sure how to describe the last couple of years.

I'm glad that you're around PC.

--splitimage

Hi DePressMe, thought I'd let you know that I've always read your posts and enjoyed them. You are an intelligent lady with a lot going for you.

I hope you get some rest soon. I've been involved with my son going to school this week, half days but still going. He is 12 1/2 and getting as tall as me.

Please take care of yourself.

Mary Alice

Hey Split, yeah, play that new harp! After all you are paying for it! That sounds very relaxing--to make beautiful music--I wish I could hear you play. it would probably sooth me a little.

UUUghh...sucks about work. Sometimes, people make stupid decisions that make the rest of us suffer. Like they just don't think about the consequences--don't consider how it will effect others. i wish you the best. Stay focused and do your best--that is all we can ask of ourselves.

Oh, wow, cool that you have been asked to talk at a meeting. People must see the strength, stability and growth that I see in you. Surely, you must be doing something right if all of us see it. I promise, we have not been talking to one another. Just share what you feel comfortable with concerning the past couple years. You are not obligated to share everything. Besides, the way I understand it, giving this talk is just as much about helping you as it about helping the others in the room. So, talk about what you need to talk about--what will help you. In doing that, there is no doubt you will help somebody else.

Well, thanks so much for writing me. You are really knowledgeable and so willing to share yourself with others. Not to mention you are just plain pretty cool.

have a good evening....

Mary Alice, how come it seems sons and daughters always get taller than their parents? I mean, really if this was really true, society would be full of 7 ft people by now. Just where are all the shorter kids? Or do us older people somehow shrink? Things like this make me wonder...keep me entertained. Thanks for giving me something interesting to think about.

You know, I don't see myself as intelligent, but I will try to accept and believe your affirmation. I will try to let it soak in and let myself feel good about it. It does not matter how smart I really am, it matters that you see something special in me. Thanks for believing in me and for telling me about it.

You are a unique and beautiful person. Thanks so much for helping me along my path of personal growth.

Hi I'm new here but I wanted to say I admire you for asking for what you needed.

I've never had sushi but don't think I'd care for it. I have a granddaughter I love with all my heart.

I just wanted to say hi.