i watched my friend been stabed to death

when i was 7 my best friend and i were playing in the local playground like be always did at one point she was on the swing and i was on the round-about, a man in his 20's aproched us and stabbed my friend to death all i remember next was him coming for me and somecame then he ran away. the person who killed my friend was never caught. i it is 6 yrs later to the day and i am still scared of him coming to my room at night and killing me.

her family invited me over to come to there house to remember her but i couldn't, it hurts just so much thinking about it we had know each other since we were toddlers and even though she has been dead for 6 yrs and i am now 13 i still think of her as my sister, but now i feel guilty for refusing to see her family what should i do??

as well as i have already posted about my boy friends death i have realized how much i hate this month i am 13 yrs old and two of the closed people to me have died in august. my boy friends death on the 8 of august 2008 and my best friends on the 10th of august. i feel depresed all the way through this month please does any one no away for me to forget? or move on?

(((vampyre love))) - my God what a horrible event to see your best friend murdered. Did you receive counseling after the event? I'm so sorry you lost your ((friend and your boyfriend)). It's terrible they never caught this monster. I pray you'll be able to heal.

I am very sorry for your losses.

Wow I am so sorry you had to witness this at such a young age... I really hope you will get counseling for it though, as that much baggage is really tough to deal with... I know how hard it is to carry a lot of baggage like that and still try to live life, it isn't easy. I don't know what to tell you other than we are all here for you in your loss. It's so hard to lose someone, and to witness it especially at the age you were is so much harder.. I hope you can get some help that will help with the nightmares, although I know the images will last forever.. If you ever need help or can't sleep, let me know and I will stay up with you.

Good luck with all you are going through.

i have never reseved counciling and i have try to get some they say it was too long ago

Who says it was too long ago? Your parents?

It took me longer than six years for my PTSD to improve.

Aww, hon, I wish I could make you feel better. The pain sucks.

Something like that is never too long... I really hope you can get some counseling, it makes things better. I wish I could make it better for you too..