[yellowted]

I really could do with my late partners safe, strong arms pulling me close to his warm comforting chest where i used to love listening to the sound of his heart rythmically beating. oh how it used to make me feel so safe and loved, the smell, oh how i loved that smell, it wasn't that of aftershave or the such, but the one of my man, the one only he could ever produce, the one that shouted 'you are safe with me, i will protect you, comfort you and give my all for you'.
i am having day surgery tomorrow and all I would like is to hear my man say 'you'll be fine' and for him to be at home when i return, but this will never be, i will return as usual to silence, only my pets for a hug if they will let me or i can catch them!
It really has brought home to me that i am all alone in this world, the only person who cares about me is me and i am not sure even i do.
this can be a very cold and lonely world when you are all alone

You are not alone ((((yellow)))). I am sorry you are hurting.
I miss mine, as well. He's not coming back, either.

I'm learning (with my T) how to comfort myself on these types of occasions so I don't feel so alone and/or afraid and sad.

I know it sounds kind of corny, but my T tells me that since I'm missing out on some things I want/need right now (I"m just in that place), I have to give them to myself. obviously I am working on that one

let us know how you are doing

[TerryL]

Originally Posted by yellowted

i am having day surgery tomorrow and all I would like is to hear my man say 'you'll be fine' and for him to be at home when i return, but this will never be, i will return as usual to silence, only my pets for a hug if they will let me or i can catch them!
It really has brought home to me that i am all alone in this world, the only person who cares about me is me and i am not sure even i do.
this can be a very cold and lonely world when you are all alone

I'm so sorry for your loss yellowted. I hope your surgery went well.

[Leed]

How did your surgery go, yellowted? Please update when you can.

Even after all these years, I can still "smell" my husband. And he had such big, strong arms -- it was hard NOT to feel safe.

I have his picture in almost every room (except the bathroom ). He keeps me company.

Keeping you in my thoughts & prayers. Hugs, Lee

[ktbelle373]

I'm so sorry you guys are going through a tough time, I just broke up with my boyfriend of 4yrs 3 days ago, the pain is so intense and heavy, I feel really alone too, we lived together for 3 yrs so my house feels so empty and lonley. yellowted i have my pets too but they dont take the place of a boyfriend do they. be strong guys we can get through this