Best friend died yesterday

My best friend from childhood passed away yesterday due to a heart attack. He had been sick with bronchitis and was having a hard time breathing. Yesterday morning he called 911, but the time they got there he was in need of a defibrillator. They got him to the hospital but they could not revive him. I just lost my husband a little over a year ago and this is bringing back my grief for him back as strong as it was when he first passed away. Now I feel alone as ever. I don't have a lot of friends so I am also fearful of being totally alone. I'm now having irrational fears that someone in my family and even my cats are going to die soon even though no one is sick. I guess I am in shock because this was so unexpected. I also feel guilty because the night before he died, he came over and I told him if he was still sick the next day I was going to take him to the doctor whether he liked it or not. I can't get it out of my mind that if I took him to the ER that night, he would still be alive. Just wanted to vent. Thanks for listening

Hello Wish I was a cat, I'm really sorry for your loss. Please try not to beat yourself up, you weren't to know that he was going to have a heart attack. It is very hard when we lose someone suddenly, be gentle with you.

I'm sorry to hear about your friend. Try to be gentle with yourself. It sounds like you have been through a lot. Take care of yourself as I'm sure that's what your husband and friend would have wanted.

I'm sorry for your loss

I am sorry to here of your loss. I know what you are going through. My brother died recently. It is difficult to deal with. They say time heals grief.

I am so, so sorry.