Still trying to deal

I'm not sure if many of you remember, but my college advisor died this past February, he was only 53. He died from complications of Diabetes. I'm sad he's gone and I was thinking today about how I said I was going to visit him one weekend, but I forgot and didn't. I feel like if I would have made that visit he might be alive now. I know things happen, but it's sooo unfair! I want him back! I deserved more time with him! I don't really know why I'm writting here, other than to get my feelings out. Thanks for listening!

((((((((((((SpazKatt)))))))))))))))

There never seems to be enough time.

You lost an important person to you, but please don't play the "what if" game. It is in no way your actions that caused this to happen.

(((((((((((Spaz))))))))))))))

You are still grieving over the loss of someone dear to you. There is no time limit on grieving. It's ok, you are allowed. But canders is right, you can't play the "what if" game. Things happen the way they happen. I drove myself nuts with the "what if" game when my mom passed. I finally had to buck up and say "enough of that!" It will eat you up inside if you don't begin to let it go hon.

Be good to yourself.....*Gentle Hugs*
J

thanks to both of you!

I understand Kat. It's so hard. Take it slow and try not to be hard on yourself.