The deal

I met this friend online a while ago and we became close friends. It is rare for me to let myself get close to someone. But we had so many things in comment and she was so kind, so lovable. Me and this online friend made a deal. We both agreed that we wouldn't quit if the other didn't.

The thing is I lost contact with her. I haven't heard from her for a long time now. Her last words to me was she was quitting, she couldn't deal with life anymore.

Lately she keeps bouncing in my mind. Is she dead or alive? What about our deal? Do I quit too? That was the deal.

The deal was that you both WOULDN'T quit....

No - don't quit. You have too much to live for if you will only look around and try some new things. She could have changed her mind after she wrote that note to you. Your responsibility is to you, and the life that is meant for only you to live. Keep up posted on your adventures-big or small. Jane - Oz

Hi TimeO,
NO, definetly, don't quit. Can't do that.
TimeO, you don't know what's going on with her life. She could have gotten busy or maybe she felt too vulnerable with you or maybe she woke up the next day and decided she didn't feel so bad after all and went on with her life.
Her computer could have broken or maybe she met this fab guy whom she's been very busy with.
I don't think you should worry too much about it.
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TimeO, Honey, are you focussing on things you can do nothing about?? Since you are making things up about her, why not write her a happy story and let her go????

Be here now: right here, right now, you are fine. She does not define you, does she??? I hope not. You have no obigation to keep a deal with someone who broke it, that you made when you were not thinking clearly. You are your own person who can do things to take care of yourself. Like coming here to know you are cared about. Ya know???

woman, take care of yourself. you cannot take care of this person. it's hard enough for us to keep afloat....we can't hold anyone else up right now. okay? xoxoxo pat

Don't quit time0. I know how much this deal meant to you, but you really don't know the facts about this persons whereabouts...living or dead. We all care very much about you and would hate to see you quit on anything, especially yourself.

I know there is nothing I can do about it. I have tried and tried and then tried again. She was so special to me, a very good friend.

I'm also sure at 100% that I didn't do anything wrong to push her away or said anything wrong. If she would have live close to me I would have gone far to help her out and she knew that.

It is true that this deal was made when we were both suicidal. We didn't wanted for the other one to quit so we made the deal. I hold on. Did she? This will always be on my mind. I just want her to be alive and happy because I care for her so much.

I thank you all so very much. Your patience and caring for me is unbelievable. I know I so often complain. I'm sorry! I have so much on my mind and dealing with a lot. I get tired.

Love you all!

))))))TimeO(((((((( bumps for you. Keep on keepin' on and keepin' us posted. OK?

I pray quitting will never be your option. It is a sad situation not to know what is happening with someone you care about. Hopefully she has others reasons for not being in contact! But no matter what, be brave, quitting is not an option.

Thank you for your concern and your kindness!

{{{{{{{{{{Time0}}}}}}}}}}}} Never, never quit! You're too beautiful a person inside and out to consider that alternative!

I love you!

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Love,
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Thank you!