[FreedomButterfly90]

I have been dealing with alot , and now woke this morning to hear my Dad's Uncle died and now we have to deal with the arrangements and also kinda tough when the deceased person didnt really prepare so we have to dig around for the info needed.

Its really hitting us all hard and causing alot of emotions in general .
My dad's uncle before he died had fluid in his lungs,gastro problems/bleeding internally, and labored breathing and now he has passed but at least has been kept comfortable in hospice before he died.

Im not sure how ill handle a memorial and the burial.

[justmemaybe]

My thoughts are with you,,,,, One step at a time and you will get thew it. cry, breath.. and remember good times with him.

[gayleggg]

I agree with justmemaybe. I just lost an aunt that I dearly loved and I've had to do those exact things over and over again. Memorials and burials are never easy but remembering the good times will get you through.
Gayle

[FreedomButterfly90]

Lets hope it all goes well , just alot goin on i feel like im going to combust with it all and my anxiety is getting bad again.

[FreedomButterfly90]

My Mom recently died from cancer and I'm so distraught and upset at the cancer that it took my Mom away and the reviewal will be at 5:00-8:00 on Tues/Wensday at 10:00 second visitation and then @11:00 the funeral.

[roads]

Keep posting here, even if you don't get an immediate response. We do care--many of us have been through it--and you really need to keep this support going.
Roadie

[gayleggg]

Sorry to hear about you Mom. I know it is a terrible loss. I lost mine 5 years ago and it still hurts at times but I have the good memories of her. She dies of COPD and I still have a lot of hate toward the disease. So I can relate. Take it one step at a time. And sometimes one breath at a time. Reach out to those you love.

[tametc]

I'm just now catching up here, and am so sorry to hear about those who lost people they loved. Sending you support, and hugs if OK. Allow yourself to grieve in your own way and in your own time. Please keep posting.

[FreedomButterfly90]

Thank you all dearly I mean it , I almost cried at the kind words and support ,so thank you very much ,it actually helped me get through the funeral an all.


And my team knows but I Overdosed twice in two nights (Fri/Sat) ,

[FreedomButterfly90]

I've been overdosing again three times as of late
A nurse told me I was lucky I didn't experience serious effects from the pills but such nausea an slight confusion I only experienced .

[Rzay4]

Please do not kill yourself you are worth more than you know. I can't imagine losing my mother and pray that's many years away. Though I lost my brother when I was just fifteen years old.

I understand your pain but life is worth it. I know this as I too went through what you're going though.

Please call the suicide hotline or call a dear friend or family member.

[FreedomButterfly90]

Originally Posted by Rzay4

Please do not kill yourself you are worth more than you know. I can't imagine losing my mother and pray that's many years away. Though I lost my brother when I was just fifteen years old.

I understand your pain but life is worth it. I know this as I too went through what you're going though.

Please call the suicide hotline or call a dear friend or family member.

Thanks I have managed not to you know and am doing slightly better i still have my moments where It is terribly hard but I'm getting through them as best as i can and know how to. Im sorry to hear about your brother many thanks for your message of help and encouragement .

[FreedomButterfly90]

I am currently at a group home and am here for the next 2 months sighs, its ok but it feels like being locked up in jail although good place im making some progress although im dreading this upcoming mother's day not that I wont celebrate it but I will be needing extra love an support on this as I feel like i might not be able to get through it .

I miss my Mom so much and the pain from the grieve just so overwhelms me and i feel like i could have done more but like maybe i dont know just thoughts that i want to talk to my new therapist about she is a psychologist but she seems to think even if we took precautions that we her an I should not dwelve into it quite yet till i can get my behaviors and suicidal thoughts under control but I understand that but yet also feel that exposure and talking about is the best policy any ideas on how to resolve this blip in the road between my therapist and I ?

I feel strong enough to do the EMDR but she says im not ready or strong enough yet , so she wants to start with resourcing first she says thats where i am at .