[ray68]

I know it's a melodramatic title, but seriously. Can everyone around me please stop dying???!

I've had FOUR people I was close to die in the past five months. Wtf. Really God? Why everyone? I'm so . . . Numb . . . Right now it doesn't feel real. My best friend, his wife, his son, and then yesterday night another of my friends died. I used to joke when I was I'm high school that I brought death to those around me. I literally warned my friends not to get too close. They all thought I was emo or goth. No, I was being serious. I moved across the country partly so I didn't have to see them die. Although I suppose if I never see them they're just as good as dead. . . You know... That's not true. Because I can still feel their presence and I know that they are well. Of the people I have become acquainted with in my new home five, out of the original nine, are alive. Effectively almost half of the people I have befriended in the past four years have died. Should I go back to my home town and rekindle my old friendships? Or should I continue traveling to stem the flow of death to my dearest ones? Is it more right that they should die in reserve of my old friends? Why does death seem to follow me? Is He waiting for me and I just unwittingly evade Him? I am Saddened. I can not seem to persuade or stop this God of Death.

[winter4me]

It is necessary, but difficult, to know that other people dying is not about you being in their lives.

[*Laurie*]

You are not a harbinger of death. But I have felt the same way. Over a decade I lost my parents, all aunts and uncles, a cousin, several friends, and many pets. Last winter 5 of my 10 pets died, this winter my sister, a friend, and my cousin died. October, November, December. I don't think I will ever be the same person I was before all of the losses. I do have PTSD from all of it.

Unfortunately, the more people and animals we have in our lives, the more losses we will experience. My heart goes out to you.

[nonightowl]

Originally Posted by *Laurie*

You are not a harbinger of death. But I have felt the same way. Over a decade I lost my parents, all aunts and uncles, a cousin, several friends, and many pets. Last winter 5 of my 10 pets died, this winter my sister, a friend, and my cousin died. October, November, December. I don't think I will ever be the same person I was before all of the losses. I do have PTSD from all of it.

Unfortunately, the more people and animals we have in our lives, the more losses we will experience. My heart goes out to you.

Me too...Over the last 5 years I've lost two friends, two cats, one dog, and a few neighbors. Last summer I lost a really good friend and just a few weeks ago my mom.

I know I'll never be the same after all this loss.