My best friend

I lost my best friend when he died in a car accident. His next door neighbor was backing out of her driveway at the same time my best friend was riding his bike she had hit him. Three days later they pull the plug. When we return back to school two days after school started back up we received name informing us of the funeral and anyone who want to attend the funeral would be excused from class or from work. I went to the funeral and had nothing but nightmares after the funeral. I begin to suffer from complicated grief. I couldn't return to school and no longer want to ride my back or do anything that I used to enjoy doing.

Six month before he had pass away I felt like something was wrong whenever I was around him I would get a really bad vibe. I didn't know what it was at that time. The last time I had saw him I touch him and felt this horrible pain go through me and I didn't know what it meant. We had just got out for spring break and sometime in the middle of spring break I had this bad feeling something was wrong and by the end of spring break I was certain something bad happen and I just didn't know what it was. When I skimmed the note I didn't realized it was my best friend or anyone had died just that someone had been in a car accident. I didn't realized it was my best friend they were referring to just that bad feeling something was wrong. It wasn't until my mom had read the note and had informed me he had died and the funeral was the next day.

It still hurts during the Easter holidays. I started hurting like I did when I was a little girl. The grief and the pain had hit me ten times worst than it did when it all happen. The grief is really bad. I never got any help and the help that I had tried to get when I ask for a referral? I was told I was crazy and need to be locked up.

Grief has no time limit. I've lost my parents. They have been gone for 9 and 18 years. It still hurts incredibly at times.

I definitely recommend therapy. It doesn't make the pain go away, but teaches you ways to deal with it positively. It also helps you process.

I am so sorry for your loss and the hurt. Hugs.

I can't find any thing therapy who take my insurance and the one did suggest I be locked up for life because I had asked for some help.

Update the pain that I still have from the lost of my best friend has yet to end. I started going back and having the nightmares again. I just want the pain to stop. All I want to do my is just run from the pain and there is no where that I can run to.

Please don't give up on looking for a therapist. Do you attend a church? Just asking because some ministers have some training in Pastoral Counseling and can be very helpful.

Anyone suggesting you be locked up for life is obviously very wrong. Try not to judge other potential therapists on your experience with that one.

I am very sorry about the loss of your neighbor and your grief.
I hope you can find someone to help you in processing grief.
I also hope it gets easier for you.

WC

I completely agree with Wild Coyote. Please find some help. Whoever told you you were crazy just did not know how to handle your grief. What that person said was about themselves, NOT about you. I promise.

I don't go to church anymore. They never offer any help for grief. I have not found any therapy yet. I called one who specialized in grief but had never heard back from that therapist.

Thank you. I tried not to take it personal. I join several support group only to find myself being banned because of a false accusations made against me or I was told that I was too mess up to be there.