simply grief...

Grief.. fills my heart... and I know there is no one that will understand.... how could anyone???

I ended my 27 year old friendship.. this past week... and I am in great mourning...there is such grief.. this person.. I have known.. most of my adult life...

I know.. you say.. this person is still alive.. so why the grief.. and why not repair the friendship..

I can't... and this person is closer than any sib.. could be.. yet.. to allow such a destructive force into my life... means I will never recover from my eating disorder...it is so complex.. how could I ever explain..

I think.. I could pass... just from a broken heart....

To know someone that long free >>>>. That is a loss ,,, and The day may come around when you two Meet again ,,, and wonder why ,.

For Now though ,,, I still take time out from peeps that I let too close to my Heart ,, then re - classify them when I pick back up with them .. Never the same though >> sometimes Better.

Good Luck .

(((Free)))

I am so sorry my friend...

Hi Freewill,

I understand.

One of my friends of 34 years has been rather destructive in some of her comments when we talk.

She lost her beloved sister at the end of March, which has been a terrible blow for her. This is my friend, Lillian, who has been blind since she was 5, and is now 78. Her sister, a few years older, had always been there for her, even though my friend has been able to bravely live on her own for years and years.

I had to bring my friend up short last week on a few things she said. I realized she was applying her fierce sense of looking at the brutal truth to my life. In her doing that, I felt like she was stabbing holes in my emotional water wings.

I was thinking for several days that I might have to cut off my friendship with her.

I have cut off what were once important relationships with friends due to lack of understanding or boundary issues.

I'm sorry for your loss at this time.

Please feel free to PM me.

EJ