[cowboy1]

WHY DO YOU LOVE

Why do you love someone just to watch them faid away infront of you? The woman I love and still love till this day and forever passed away laying in my arm's with me helpless. I have done alot so far with my life from rideing bull's and breaking horses to surviveing four fatal accident's and more. But I can't understand why when I should be where she is im not. She was the life and foundation and pillar that held me up. She knew me sometimes better than I knew myself sometimes and alway's loved me no matter what.
But tell me why should you devote your heart and soul for the rest of your life just to see it dangled infront of you and in one swipe it is all taken away from you? To leave you kneeling on the ground with pieces all over. I do not except in my life right now or maybe forever that she was taken because she was a good angel or she was taken early because she had a higher purpose.
All i know is it has left my life empty and black like being droped into a hole that never has a bottom. So now I ask if I am falling why would it happen again with my father who is sick now like I just got spit in the face again.
Nobody is perfect but I can say she may not have been the most beutiful or the most perfect but I can say I will defend her and protect her still to this day nomatter what is said or what is done.When they made her she was one of a kind and there will never be a mold built like her again because it was broke in heaven. So I ask why do you love to see it taken away as fast as you knew her?

YOU HAVE TAKEN
You have taken the love of my life,To leave me in pieces,Everything I have loved and charished in in my life you have ripped it away for me to pick up all the pieces.

You have turnd your back on me once more, To give me grief so i can't live much more. You have broke me if that was your plan, but tell me onething why are you going to do it all again.

cowboy1

[missbelle]

So deeply sorry for your loss!!

[somuchmore]

I'm sorry about both your wife, and your fathers sickness.

My father died of cancer 5 yrs ago this September 17. He was stubborn and refused to go to the doctor, and by the time he did, it was too late. He managed another 3 months before he passed. It was the longest 3 months of my life. When he did pass I was almost grateful because his pain was over. After all this time I was starting to cope better when my brother overdosed. Sometimes it happens that way I guess. It's not an easy thing to handle, and it feels like you take one or two steps forward only to take eight back.

One day at a time, as corny as that sounds. That's how I'm making it. Take care of yourself.

[IowaFarmGal]

Cowboy, I'm so sorry for your pain. There is no why, no sense to this kind of tragedy. If you'd known this was the price, would she have been worth it? You know that she was and that the time you had with her was a precious thing even if it was too short. It does seem cruel all the pain that is piled on you right now. I'm not sure if you want my prayers you are so angry with God right now. I'm still going to hope that you find healing someday and hold on to the belief that you can get through this. You also have other people counting on you and you can't give up. You're absolutely right, it isn't fair, it's too much to expect of a person, but please just keep putting one foot in front of the other until you get through this. I apologize for shying away from reading about your pain, that was selfish of me. Hugs!

[lizardlady]

Cowboy, I'm sorry for your loss.

You ask why love just to suffer seeing the person fade away? You are the only one who can answer that question for you, but for me the answer is yes. There's a line in a Garth Brooks song that sums it up for me "I could've done without the pain, but I would've had to miss the dance."

Was the dance with your wife worth the pain you feel now?

[ktbelle373]

I think that although it is hard not to focus on the lose of her, try to focus on the time that you had with her. she was a gift from heaven, and although she has passed and you feel so much pain right now, you were blessed to have her, you were meant to love her, there is a reason why she came into your life, even if you dont know what that reason is. i think all you can do right now is to allow yourself to grieve. i wish you all the best.