[anxietygirl]

My mom will be gone 2 years on April 27th. She was killed in a horrible car accident on the way to work. I remember getting the call and I was driving, I pulled over on the side of the road and just sat there screaming until someone came to get me. I drove to my mom's house where she lived and where my grandmother lived (my mom was taking care of her). On the way, I could see the traffic on the other side of the freeway backed up for miles and miles. It happened in the morning, but the freeway was still closed that afternoon. I remember thinking about my mom on the freeway alone, dead in the car on a freeway. I wondered if she knew that she was going to die, was she in pain, was she afraid. I still think these things. I want to talk to her, I want to see her. I feel people think I should be over it. I have been having nightmares, anxiety attacks, and depression since December. It hit me like a freight train out of nowhere. I thought the grieving was over. I went to my doctor and he gave me AD and some medication to help with anxiety, but I am still suffering. I thought about going to a psychiatrist bc I have suffered with anxiety and panic attacks most of my llfe and I feel they would be better equipped to prescribe and treat me with the right medications. The medications seemed to work at first, but now I am feeling bad again. And on top of that, my son tried to kill himself last Friday and he just got out of the treatment center. I am under a tremendous amount of stress, dealing with the death of my mother after two years and dealing with the fear of my son trying to kill himself again. I don't know what to do.

((((((anxietygirl)))))))))))))))))) Im so sorry for your loss and all thats been going on
my prayers are with you

[notz]

I am sorry for your hard times. Please stay in touch.

notz

[bebop]

hon I am so sorry for your loss. I do strongly advise getting some kind of counseling. grief counseling is a wonderful thing. it can help you with coping skills to learn how to deal with it.

[free2beme]

(((((( anxietygirl )))))

I am so sorry for the loss of your mom.
You are really going though a hard time right now.
I agree with Bebop, counseling could be very beneficial.

You also may need a med change or adjustment.
Talk to your doctor.

Please let us know how you are doing.
Take care.

[ThePainNeverDies]

(((((((((anxietygirl)))))))))

I'm so sorry to hearabout your loss. It's a terrible thing when a parent dies. I hope things start to get easier for you..

Have you tried talking to your son about why he tried to kill himself? Please rememberthat we all care about you and we're here to help you. PM me anytime you need, you are in my thoughts

[Safron]

anxietygirl,

I'm so sorry for your loss.

I have two sons and a daughter. I dread to think how I would cope in your situation.

My dad committed suicide some time ago now, and this experience has helped me to understand a little of the horrors of someone dealing with this and the helplessness you feel.

The strength and energy of others is all around you - use it. I would.

Love, strength, energy, and best wishes to you at this sad time.