[cantstopcrying]

*****************Trigger for suicide***********************


He was 19. I wouldn't know him if I saw him walking down the street, but my heart is sobbing at this. He was bipolar and had tried this before. He was living with his father in Illinois. His mother and I used to be so so close when we were growing up. Then she became pregnant in high school and shut herself off from all of us cousins. We used to do everything together. Her dad and his wife (her mom passed away years ago) stay at the same place as my folks in the winter in Florida and someone went and got my dad Sunday night and said that Ron needed him. He wanted my mom and dad to ride with him and his wife back up here to Michigan. At the time, all they knew was he was dead. Before they got here Monday, they found out it was suicide..he cut his wrists. I sat up all night just wondering how his mom will take her next breath? How does she do the simplest thing, like brush her hair? She had another shock coming, though. She took clothes to the funeral home for him (I don't know how you do this) and was told she needed to bring a turtleneck. He also hung himself in a field---no one was going to tell her about that, just about him slitting his wrists. She found out from the funeral home director. How? How do you not tell a mother how her baby died? I know her and I have not been close over the past 20 years, but I just want to hug her and heal all her pain. To those of you who have lost a child, I don't know how you do it, how you survive daily. I'm sorry, I know this is rambling, I'm just having a difficult time processing this.

[madisgram]

(((((CSC))))) i was so saddened when i read your post about your cousin's son. so young, so much to live for if he had not been tortured in the mind. i lost me best girlfriend when she and i were 45. i could not even sit through the entire service. the pain and grief was overwhelming me. i won't say how she did it but it was soooo deliberate and she wanted to makes sure that last attempt was abssolutely successful.
it makes me feel grateful that i was able to get good pschiatric and psychologival treatment. today i know life is worth living. but so many ppl with some mental condition cannot find their way to the light. not their fault.
my condolences to you, dear person.

[bebop]

I lost a granddaughter. to me it was the same as losing my child. I had spent from her birth with her up until 2 weeks before her death. she was 13 weeks old. not alot of time to make those kinds of memories that your cousin did but she was my heart. I thought my world had ended right then and there. I can't imagine if she had lived 18 yrs. My prayers are with you and your family during this very difficult time hon.

Sorry to hear that, CSC. It's such a heart-wenching tragedy.

I knew someone who took their life by hanging too. He was only 17 years old.

I don't know what it's like to lose a child but I saw what it did to my mother when her sons died, and they weren't little children.

Hugs to you and your family.

[nowheretorun]

(((stop)))) its very heart breaking and very human to respond as you have.. these tragedies continue to bombard us each day and fill us with sadness and questions... we try each time to understand a little better and it can never become an easy thing for anyone.. sending caring

[notz]

So sorry, so very, very sorry.

notz

[Capp]

(((CSC)))

In my thoughts
Cap

((canstopcrying))sorry i did not see this yesterday
My thoughts and prayers are with you