I need to talk to her, dammit, and I need her to talk back to me.

[Behindthemoon]

Well,i dont know whats going on there but i guess you are not feeling well.
Sending hugs your way

[snowflake_48888]

<<<<<<hands orange blossom a kleenex...soft one....
hugs
Snowy

[bebop]

((((mypet))) honey just today I thought the same thing about my mom. it has been just over 15 yrs now. it happens less now but I was amazed it still happened. I want you to know I understand hon.

[mysterytour]

my dear friend......when i had these moments after my dad died..i went to a quiet place and said all i needed to say....he may not have talked back to me right away but in time...he answered me....your mom will too......

[free2beme]

(((((((((( Orange )))))))))))

(((orange)))))
Did you know you can talk to your Mom.
DId you know I talk to mine all the time
Did you know it took awhile before I was over the greif to know shes always here with me
Did you know I know its hard .
Did you know in time it gets better alittle bit at a time

Your Mom loved you very much and you loved her. I know your angry.
I wish I could make it better for you,
muffy

Thank you so much everyone. Just when I'm feeling alone and that no one really cares, I come here and find, once again, kind and caring souls.

I'm going into my "I don't need anyone" phase as I shut down the pain. It's unhealthy, I know, but as p-doc said today, sometimes it's neccessary.

[mysterytour]

you're going to be ok honey....it takes time.....alot of time.....

[Zorah]

Originally Posted by Orange_Blossom

I need to talk to her, dammit, and I need her to talk back to me.

((((((((((OB))))))))))

you probably remember us trying to email our husband after he died, he never replied naturally
and it will be 3 years in a couple of weeks now, since he went and we still feel like that

Take gentle care of yourself ((((((((((OB)))))))))))
We can offer no comfort but hugs

Zorah, I connot believe it has been three years since Tony died.

I think of you two every time I see Pooh and Piglet.

[Zorah]

darling ((((((((((OB))))))))))))

we have that picture framed & hanging on our wall

Tony gave it to us a couple of years before he died

May you find peace, love, we think of you every day

May we all find peace

[madisgram]

OB, she lives within you.
you can talk to her anytime you wish.
i often do that with both my parents.
i can't explain it but i know they hear me.
i find comfort in that.
how i live my life, i hope, is a living tribute to them.
they are deserving of that from me.
you can do the same.

[Justgiving]

[nowheretorun]

(((orange))))) i hope you begin feeling better sooner rather than later... always sending hope and kindness to you

Thanks everyone for your concern and caring. I am doing the best I can.

[Sabrina]

I am so sorry for your pain.

[rappacinisgarden]

(((orange)))

[Justgiving]

((((((((((Orange_Blossom)))))))))

[EnglishMajor]

OrangeBlossom, I know, I know. If I could ever stop crying for missing my own mother.

[mixedup_emotions]

I am so sorry you are going through this. It's a natural feeling, but such a painful one...and one that no one can take away from you. I ache for you, as I haven't fully grieved over the death of my father (will be 2 years on March 2nd).

It's true you can talk to your mom anytime, anywhere....but it's not the same. It's not what we want. We want them to BE HERE WITH US PHYSICALLY.

I want my dad's big bear hugs so desperately sometimes....

Just know that you're not alone....and grieving is a normal and healthy process, but indeed it is extremely painful.

Thanks MUE. I am trying to hold it together today. I can't believe it's been two months already. It still seems so unreal and dreamlike.

[drummergrl]

Originally Posted by Orange_Blossom

I need to talk to her, dammit, and I need her to talk back to me.

Hey Orange Blossom:
It's been a long time for me as well since my mother died from "suicide". I don't pretend to know how you feel, but loss is loss no matter how you roll the dice! I never stop wondering what might have been if I'd only been there for her during that time. I feel anger, sadness that never leaves, and a sense of GUILT that may never not leave it's mark in my head. I know it wasn't my call or anything I could do to stop her, but I tell myself "that's not the way it feels"!!!
Stay focused on who you are and who you want to be, that's what she would want. And by the by: take my advice, I NEVER use it!!!
I miss her more than she'll ever know, and still I wonder...........WHAT IF?

Originally Posted by Orange_Blossom

Thanks MUE. I am trying to hold it together today. I can't believe it's been two months already. It still seems so unreal and dreamlike.

(orange))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
i still wish i could call mine
please know i am thinking of you

[nightbird]

xoxoxo