[(JD)]

I'm just about free of the flare... intense pain... most of the sacrum is where it belongs.... of course the "normal" pain for me goes on.. Thank you for all your thoughts!

My MD didn't mention anything about driving... strange... but I'll take it. (I certainly didn't bring it up!)

She also ignored the fact that due to the pain flare, I ran out of the regular script of demerol... grrrrrr (I'm using up my small cache of stored med, because I don't take it all the time, prefering to put up with more pain so I have it for flares... but doing so also causes flares ! grrrr)

[CedarS]

Good to hear that you are almost out of the recent flare, hope you get a long stretch of respite!

Sarah

[nightdream]

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Take good care of yourself! You are so worth it!

It must be a bit of a relief that you can still drive. Great!

nightdream

[(JD)]

TKS to all who read. sigh. Well, I do feel still a bit guilty as the MD might think I am NOT driving (she said not to..) but my other 2 caregivers say ok... My T and I discussed what I have "on my calendar" and he says it's at the "envelope." NOW 3 more things are begging... I can't do... but I do have to add one for the morning, as my MD wants bloodworkup again... sigh and I had to schedule the DMD because he moved his office and I haven't been able to find it, and he never finished my dental work... so that's 2 more things other than the 3 I can't... but I have to do the 2... no telling what else will come up, as I'm talking the month of October here... I found out at concert practice tonight that there's a retreat this weekend... but I can't of course, but I'm supposed to go for a special rehearsal on mid Saturday... but can't stay for the banquet because I didn't make reservations (I didn't know about this banquet..or the retreat.)This was the first practice for the new concert year. Noone sat near me, I even moved up one full row but still sat alone. I haven't heard any of the music before (though I read music.) And no, it isn't my voice as it's an auditioned choir. I just don't fit in, anywhere. I am so out of the loop IN EVERYTHING - I feel.. always the 5th wheel... grrrrrrrrr

[nightdream]

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[dottie]

Hi Sky.

Hope things look up for you soon. Despair is a tough thing to avoid. Hang in there. You are not alone in the world. We are here...OK?!

~Dottie

[(JD)]

Too much.. it all "feels" like just too much. I went back out on Thursday night (prior commitment at church) and ended up transporting in another's vehicle.. a duelly... I had to have help getting up into it, and in exiting, they didn't and I forgot just how far down the ground was... (2'?) and I hit hard and like stacked and racked my spine! So I was back into increased pain... then on Friday (the 30th) I got a call... family "crises" requiring an intervention FROM ME of all things/people! That took till 2:30 am today (Saturday) and another 3 hours today. I figured I'd sit in the backyard with the dog till the weather turned, just trying to release some stress, and kicked over a barrier rock : nest of snakes! sigh. (very pretty babies, all silver and no "formed" heads yet... have no clue what they are and too tired to check...maybe black racers?) Anyway... my going to the choir retreat this weekend was never a set "date" and my T and I figured I could TRY and go this afternoon to the part where they would practice the Christmas concert music, and return without going to the banquet... but I didn't get to any of it. Seems noone there is ever going to get to know me... still out o fthe loop. OH yeah, there was another issue that exploded in the volunteer circuit... a guy who is mentally unstable went ... blasted myself and another higher up with all sorts of delusional lies... sigh ALAS! I didn't respond (as I am learning how to not feel the need) and forwarded one of the messages (didn't even read but 2 total ) to MY higher ups who have assured me the matter is -by this writing today - taken care of. They assured me, and supported me in that they knew nothing said was true etc. NOW THAT is what I call GOOD! And I so needed the proper response for once!!!! Maybe I'm just changing loops from poor to good? Tks for reading yall, TC.

[kimmydawn]

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i'm exhausted just reading that! rest up.

kd