[Morgansangel]

I've got a really bad outbreak of eczema on my scalp at the moment due to stress and it is so painful.

I've been using the scabs/sore parts as self harm, picking them constantly and i can't stop it but it hurts so much it's making me cry.

I've got steroid stuff, special shampoo and antibiotics because some parts are infected even though I've tried really hard to keep them clean.

It burns constantly, stings really badly when I'm applying lotions etc and just is so so sore.

I've also problems at the moment with my neck and sinuses.

I just want to cut my head off I'm in so much pain.

I'm taking lots of painkillers but it doesn't even touch the pain. I can't concentrate on anything and am not getting anything done i should be doing.

[lynn P.]

I'm sorry you're in so much pain and having these urges to pick. Often creams/lotions aren't meant to be on raw skin. Does your doctor know you have these urges and do you take meds or go to therapy? Is there any distraction or tricks that help curb these urges? I sure hope you feel better soon and hugs to you (((Morgansangel))

[Morgansangel]

Thank you.

Yeah they know, I was really open when I talked to them about it

I take meds but am currently mid med change and I'm in therapy.

Nothing helps with the urges. I've not found anything that will stop me from SI if I feel I need to Also though even when I'm not doing it as self harm I'm doing it subconsciously without realising it and even in my sleep

Just feel like everything is going wrong right now

Thank you and thank you for the hugs

[lynn P.]

You're welcome and sorry nothings helping you. Would it help if you wear those light cotton gloves at bedtime. They sell them in the makeup section where they have makeup sponges. Usually they're for people who want to put cream on their hands at night. Would finding something else to do with your hands help? Like a craft or some fidgeting thing to hold. Maybe being mindful and re-direct yourself to do something else. Hope the med change gets better and hope you find something that helps.

[Morgansangel]

Unfortunately no, I'm really funny about things on my extremities when I'm sleeping, I never wear socks in bed (or any other time I can get away with it ) and even when I was a baby mum says I used to have scratch mitts and socks off before she could even get both sets on. It's a sensory thing I think I just feel wrong with gloves/socks/tights etc on.

I love craft but I just haven't the motivation or the brain power at the moment to do it. Also my scalp and neck are hurting so badly I've not even been able to boot up my laptop and sit in bed with it the last few days (im accessing here on my phone) as I can't concentrate on anything all I can think of is the pain.
I've tried popping other joints and holding cushions etc but I just find my hands on my scalp again without even meaning to. Or not being able to think of anything at all except doing it

Thank you. I really hope so because this hurts so much