I have no idea.

I'm here because I'm supposedly going to see a therapist soon
and uh. I guess I'm seeing a therapist more or less not because
I'm unhappy, but because people that really bother me keep
telling me I have to. I get it, you're depressed. I get it, I don't
talk to you so you're depressed and you're going to transfer said
depression onto me because I don't talk to you.

Ever thought that I might just not talk to you because I don't want
to?

I mean, I get narcissism is bad. Right? I mean, I think I'm awesome.
I think I'm awesome no matter what anyone else says. Personally,
I really like that.

What I don't get everyone else that seems to think that I have some
obligation to speak to them, or have some relationship. Or thinks that
its OK to gossip about my back and spread rumors. Uh, it isn't OK?

Honestly, when people stop with the back-stabbing ********, I'm a pretty
nice person. I just don't want to play by your rules OK? If you're
approaching me. I'm going to assume its because you like me for some
reason or another, so why do you keep trying to get me to do what
you do if it isn't working for you? I mean, come on? Get a grip. If you're
not happy, listen to people that are happy. Simple enough??

Ugh, everyone around me seems so depressed they're like dead all the
time and being around them just makes me feel worse.

Sounds like you have limited patience and ability to cope with other people's problems. and reading between the lines I would say unofficially that you display many traits. I wish you all the luck with your therapy - and by the way I am sure you are a very nice person

I can relate to some of your sentiments.

I don't understand why people feel like they're entitled to having their "issues" listened to in an empathetic manner. I operate differently than most people, I don't feel any sense of obligation as far as being "supportive" goes. I give support when I feel like it, not because someone may or may not "need" it.

Even when I do offer my time and support to others, most people find my lack of empathy rather offensive, which I also don't understand. I can cognitively understand what they're going through but since I don't "feel" the empathetic connection most of the time then I'm suddenly a horrible person if I get "found out". I don't get it. I listen, I cognitively understand what they're going through, I give good advice, but if the person I'm listening to finds out I don't "feel" anything I'm saying then they think I'm the devil! I find it all to be incredibly perplexing!

Who's "gossiping" and "back-stabbing" you? Why do you think they're feeling the need to do that?