[kjb1985]

Hi everyone thanks for reasing, im 24yo male ive dealt with depression for about 10years, and the last year or so have been struggling with anxiety/ocd. My intrusive thoughts are so persistent and really terrifying. They mostly involve harming my son or father physically/sexually, and sometime even dreams, or i should say nightmares about the same thing. I read up on everything about this and i am fully aware i would never, ever harm anyone let alone my loved family members. I seem to have the Obsession without the complusion in OCD. I also have other less violents strange intrsuvie thoughts, like spitting on randoms strangers, kissing my male friends [ not homosexual at all ] these obsession all seem to be the totall opposite of who i am really am, like it knows exactly how to disturb and distress me. I am taking citalropram, and xanax as need which helps sometimes, but for whatever reason i have these intrusive thoughts/anxiety more so during this time of year. Some times the anxiety turns into panic attacks and yesterday was my first one in like 7months but it was terrible..does anyone have similar issues like this? any advise on different meds or anything else helps? therapy? meditation or something i dunno i just need help with this as much as possible, thanks

[Aunt Donna]

I struggle with this time of year, also. I would suggest a therapist to talk things over with. I see a counselor when I need to.

[thunderbear]

Originally Posted by kjb1985

Hi everyone thanks for reasing, im 24yo male ive dealt with depression for about 10years, and the last year or so have been struggling with anxiety/ocd. My intrusive thoughts are so persistent and really terrifying. They mostly involve harming my son or father physically/sexually, and sometime even dreams, or i should say nightmares about the same thing. I read up on everything about this and i am fully aware i would never, ever harm anyone let alone my loved family members. I seem to have the Obsession without the complusion in OCD. I also have other less violents strange intrsuvie thoughts, like spitting on randoms strangers, kissing my male friends [ not homosexual at all ] these obsession all seem to be the totall opposite of who i am really am, like it knows exactly how to disturb and distress me. I am taking citalropram, and xanax as need which helps sometimes, but for whatever reason i have these intrusive thoughts/anxiety more so during this time of year. Some times the anxiety turns into panic attacks and yesterday was my first one in like 7months but it was terrible..does anyone have similar issues like this? any advise on different meds or anything else helps? therapy? meditation or something i dunno i just need help with this as much as possible, thanks

Hi. I have bad thoughts too. I know how tough they are to deal with. My therapist diagnosed me as having obsessive personality i guess thats like OCD with out the ritual physical things. The way he explained it was its intrusive obsessive disturbing thoughts. Like I have obsessive thoughts of harming myself although I never would do it. It still scares the hell out of me though. I am also on Celexa aka citrolapram and Valium. It helps for the most part but I have my bad days like today. But since I have started therapy and meds my good days are more. How long have you been on your meds? I know it takes a few weeks for them to get in your system good. You should try talk therapy. So far that combined with my meds has helped alot. PM me if you want to talk about it. It sucks I know

[Lauru]

The thoughhts really suck. I get those too. Quite often actually, and I take meds regularly and religiously to counteract them. I am trying to just ignore them and remind myself when they come up that they are no reflection of me as a person, they are only a reflection of my illness of OCD. My psychiatrist said that obsessive thoughts are never about things we would do, only things that we would never do, because that is what is so distressing. He said, people don't get obsessive thoughts about brushing their teeth and staying on their diets! So I send you well wishes and lots of hugs

Know that they are not real and that you are not alone in this. We are good people, we just have a mental illness called OCD.

[kjb1985]

Thanks guys, its always resassuring to know im not the only one. It does seem like the ocd or [ or obsessive personality disorder ] as thunderbear mentioned seems to prey on what would bother us the most. For example, my intrusive thoughts seem to be mostly surrounded about my 4yo son, or my family members all of whom which i love very much and would never harm any of them! This is was of the least researched part of any pychological illness it seems..