Do i have ocd at all?

Alright, i am new here, hello all! I am writing thread here because i thought ( think ) i am suffering it. First of all i would like to say i am not in an opportunity to go to an psychiatrist. So i am 17 ,male, straight ,eveything was ok until 1 month ago when i got ill, i lost my attraction towards women, and i started wondering if i am gay, was anxious and depressed until two days later i found ''hocd'' on the google, and i it gave me big relief. Soon after i my doubting almost stopped , it was still coming but not as much as it used to did. But i was afraid more of OCD than of beeing gay/bi, i was afraid it will always be here, even when i felt better i was telling myself that i cant feel better since i got OCD. Looking for reassurance online messed me up badly, it affected my mood daily. So last night i was at playground , and i read somewhere on the internet about POCD, so i was wondering do i have POCD, not am i pedophile, just do i have POCD, and i stopped thinking about HOCD ,i was depressed ,i was like, can i actually have Ocd of whatever i think?! Am i really having OCD? Since i am more afraid of having Ocd than beeing gay or pedophile, since i know i am not any of these. Besides how can 17 year old be pedophile? Maybe i dont have problem at all?

Welcome to PC.

This might help.

Obssessive-Compulsive Disorder Symptoms and Treatment

OCD Screening Quiz (Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder) - Psych Central

Hello whatswrong: Well, at the risk of being completely wrong myself, I'll just suggest that you're working yourself into a stew, so to speak, over what probably is nothing. But, under any circumstances, we here on PC can't diagnose you. For that you need to see a mental health professional. But do keep posting here on PC. The more you post the more likely it is that other members will reply & you'll perhaps get some of the answers you seek!

Hi & welcome to PC-I would recommend just getting an appointment with your doctor who could then refer you to someone if needed-if you are under a lot of stress & not sleeping you may just need a safe place to vent & develop some positive coping strategies-take care.

We all have messed up thoughts. I actually went through exactly what you went through about 5 months ago. I am 24, male, straight.. have been attracted to women my entire life but for some reason I started thinking I was gay? Something didn't add up. The truth is 2 + 2 = 4 and not 5. If 2 + 2 = 5 doesn't make any sense. It sounds like you experienced pure o which is different than OCD, but they are both mental habits. Labeling yourself or anyone with a disorder isn't healthy and is completely absurd in my opinion because it suggests that people are ill. People and yourself are not ill or "sick". The reality is you have put too much focus on a thought or something that has you happened to you that you have experienced. Also if you try to defeat something that is irrelevant or something that shouldn't even be there in the first place then the prominent problem lies with the "trying to defeat" it. You have to think of how this spiral even started in the first place, whether it be social anxiety disorder, obsessive compulsive disorder, etc.... It all started one day when you had a thought or sensation that you didn't like and then instead of dismissing it like most people do, you dwelt on it and tried to figure out why you were having these thoughts. This is where it can get unhealthy because then we begin to analyze over irrelevancy. There's nothing to figure out though. By irrelevant I mean that it shouldn't even be there in first place. Therefore there is nothing to figure out. I know it is a problem of reassurance. Assuring yourself that you would never do these things or that you are or aren't a certain way, but deep down you know you are not this way because if you were then you would just go do it. So getting into a mental spiral of trying to defeat something that shouldn't be there in the first place (irrelevant) is of no good at all. This problem that you have doesn't serve any good at all. Instead, you need to have courage. Our minds don't learn by what we tell it especially with OCD or pure o because that is the root cause is mentally torturing yourself basically or "trying to figure something out". Our minds learn by our actions and what we do, and not only actions but proving that these thoughts are absolutely absurd and quite frankly, just downright silly if you ask me. I know to people like myself the thoughts seem hideous, disgusting, evil, vile, ridiculous, and this is why we blame ourselves because we think that we shouldn't be having these thoughts in the first place. Then we begin to think that because we are thinking of these things that it must mean that we are our thoughts, which is completely absurd. Please don't make yourself sick, you will drive yourself insane. Trust me I know. I don't want to tell you my pure o because I don't want anyone else to experience them. I've accepted my thoughts as just information though. If you accept the thoughts and let them be there while doing the opposite repeatedly then you start to prove to yourself that you would never do these things and it can and will get to a point where all of this mental torture you have been putting yourself through is just downright silly. You have to move forward with courage and kindness though. This site taught me this actually. This site is awesome and yes pure o can be broken...... notice how I say "broken" and not defeated. I don't like the term defeat when dealing with mental disorder because there is no "defeating" irrelevant things there is only letting go and making them "broken" to where you heal yourself and set yourself free again. It takes courage and discipline but it is possible. Just don't engage and try to figure things out because that is all how it started in the first place and if you do that then you are just taking yourself back to the same state that started it every single time. That is why it is a habit. This is why it is a never ending spiral. I hope this helps and take care. Just lead with want you want to do with your heart while accepting the thoughts as just thoughts. The mind follows the heart and the heart follows the mind.

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