[EverExpandingForeve]

I feel like every day a big chunk of my energy is going to looking in the mirror at myself, comparing myself to others on every level, and trying to self diagnose myself with things like autism. I want to do other things but it feels like I'm stuck endlessly trying to solve some unsolvable problem and it feels "funny" if I don't obsess over this during the day. It's almost like I'm addicted to worrying and compulsively checking up on myself.

Is this OCD? Whats the best treatment for this?

Would it be a good idea to try to fight back against these thoughts and not give in to my compulsions?

[Skeezyks]

Hello EverExpandingForeve: The Skeezyks' experience has been that trying to self-diagnose is just a big tangled ball of wire that can never be untwisted. I don't know if this can technically be called OCD. But it certainly can feel like it. Personally, I suspect that the remedy is to get with a mental health professional & let them diagnose you... although, again personally, I haven't had a lot of success with that either.

My perspective is that trying fight back against unwanted thoughts & emotions just makes them keep coming back stronger. I strive to employ a Buddhist practice called: "compassionate abiding". This involves simply allowing thoughts & emotions to come up & being with them with lovingkindness & compassion until they fade of their own accord. It's not a cure. But with time, unwanted thoughts & emotions do lose some of their power, plus one learns that it is possible to stay with difficult thoughts & emotions & still maintain one's balance... one's equanimity...