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i am usually passively suicidal at baseline (thanks bpd) but then i get these intrusive thoughts either for no reason, things are going fine, or when one things goes wrong. my brain just goes like SUIcde then i cant stop getting the intrusive thought out of my head it just repeats on loop
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Hello chasms: Yes, the Skeezyks is pretty-much always at least passively suicidal as well.
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I used to have this. It was certainly OCD for me because I wasn't serious about killing myself and the thought was so constant.
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What do y'all mean by "passively suicidal"???
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It means it's always there, in my mind, as something I will do one day, just not yet. I'm not planning but I do intend to do it eventually.
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I get intrusive thoughts of suicide when im very bored, stressed, obsessive, depressed, or on a anxiety binge. I can say that those thoughts have been with daily for two months now. But I want to believe that I would never act on those thoughts. I say "believe" because I cant say for sure, im not clairvoyant. Sent from my KYOCERA-E6560 using Tapatalk |
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Hello Chasms (and everyone else). So your obsession is suicide itself? I've had similar obsessions like for example, when my nieces were born I couldn't take them in my arms for MONTHS after they were born because I kept having sudden thoughts about dropping them or hurting them unwillingly. In this case, the obsession was not hurting myself, it was hurting others.
Later on, I've learned to assume and distance myself from those thoughts seeing them not as ideas for the future but just as random thoughts that cross my mind and I'm trying too hard to shake off! It also helped me to read somewhere that most people have that kind of thoughts but they only present a problem to OCD people because we obsess about them. |
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![]() ![]() ![]() I got chewed out the other day because my old man was complaining because im on my phone a lot nowadays. Im on it because I need a distraction strong enough to divert myself away from my thoughts of violence. Plus im 23, it's my phone, and I pay a third of the bills. Sent from my KYOCERA-E6560 using Tapatalk |
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