[Overcastbutclearing]

I see my T tonight. I am kind of excited and scared.
I printed out all these articles on BPD (with which I was diagnosed with several years ago) and I made notes on them and gave them to her to read. I want to have her say I was misdiagnosed. These articles show such a negative perspective on people with BPD. One site warns people to stay away from people with this disorder.
I already hate myself...that is nothing new. But now I feel like if I have this disorder I am nothing but a piece of garbage that people don't want to have anything to do with. And, what if my T decides the same thing about me.
I feel like a monster, freak, loser.
I am having a hard time thinking anything good about me.
I feel like I am on this huge roller coaster for years now.
I have a few months here and there where things are good. Then I drift back into suicidal thoughts, SI, and a deep sense of hurt and shame. I am tired of these routine.
Anyway, I just wanted to get that out today.
Thanks for listening!

[SweetCrusader]

Those are *stereotypes* about BPD and nothing more. People with borderline are not inherently "bad" or "toxic" just because they have borderline personality disorder. It's a label, and using it to describe ANY person is going to be a very *limited* view of who that person really is. If your T is smart, they won't treat your diagnosis, they will treat *YOU* as a person.

Best of luck to you...

Angela

[kimmydawn]

well said, angela. my t and i don't discuss dx for the reason of labeling. we talk about life and how it can work better for me.

gl, sj.

you're going to be okay.......you're a strong and cool young woman!! pat

[nothemama8]

You are one tough cookie and we have love and faith in you
Angie

[Overcastbutclearing]

Thanks for the support guys!
It is appreciated.
I will let you know how it goes.

[vacantangel]

Don't worry about whatever dx you get. Whatever it is, you will learn how to deal with it in a way that is best for you. I happen to think you are a really great person and I like you, certainly not someone I would shy away from at all. Whatever our dx is, we just have to accept it and examine our areas in life that need improvement and work on them. That makes you no different than the rest of us. When I talk to people on this site, I don't think of them having this label or that label, I see them as a 'person'. And that's what you are, a warm, caring and loving person who happens to have whatever label that the psychiatric profession bestows upon you. Separate you from the dx and focus on YOU!!! The rest will all fall into place. None of us here is perfect or better than you because we may have gotten a different dx than you have. Don't worry about it sweetie. Just be you, that's all you need to do. Much love!!! Good luck at your t appt. Pls let me know how it goes.

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[jmo531]

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[Overcastbutclearing]

Hi All,
My T appt went well. And my T said that she doesn't treat a Dx she treats a person. So that made me feel better.
Thanks for your support!

Hey SJ... that's awesome. I'm so happy that it went well. Sounds like you got yerself a kisk arse T there. Congrats.

Ry

[Eva1nder]

Hi sj...that's really great to hear ...sounds like you've got a good T

Take good care
Eva