[Typo]

I'm getting frustrated...... and I didn't know where to put this...

I am prone to having hallucinations and dislussions when stressed or digging to deep into unpleasent memories...

here lately I've been having a hard time concentrating, I"m starting to hear things again and having parnoid dislussions, so far I am able to sort of talk myself out of the confusion on what is real and what isn't..

I'm having problems sleeping and I"m starting to alinate myself and find myself annoyed when required to keep company, I know if I let myself compeltely isolate I'll have a downward spiral and loose control..

I just don't know what to do, everything is too loud, bright, and I feel guilty for rambling now. I just don't know what to do, I know I need to tell T when I see her next monday, I"m scared to what she will say or tell me to do..

I just haven't been able to compeltely recover from my very stressful winter break, I"m a big ball of anxious on edge stress mess....

what do I do/......

[paddym22]

Be gentle on your good self Typo love, you are a wonderful person and it worries me to see you in such unecessary pain. True Isolation is a no go area, I have just come out of a very ill period where I totally isolated myself and I just got worse and worse, the only way out was to take a trip home to Ireland where I was forced to socialise and take part in life. Having too much me time can at times appear attractive but in reality it leads to the many symptoms you are describing, try not to lose touch with reaiity and remember that what you are experiencing is not real.

I am here for you always dear friend

Paddy

Whatever your therapist tells you I hope it alleviates the frustration, banishes the delusions and hallucinations and instills confidence that you can beat this scourge.

Good luck.

[Epimetheus]

Sometimes when I get too caught up in my thoughts and skew reality I watch a movie or tv or read a book. It helps me get caught up in someone else's life for a change. I don't know if it helps you, but it works for me.

[sanityseeker]

Hi Typo... I am in a similar boat and so all I can do is let you know you are not alone.

While isolation is tempted and in some ways settling it can be problematic if extended for too long. I try to get out for a walk or go play with kids in the school yard across the street during their lunch or recess breaks. Kids are so much easier for me to socialize with than adults especially when I am feeling like this.

[Typo]

It is very hard to isolate since I am back in classes now, but I caught myself thinking the other day about just not going to class and hiding in my room.

I seem to do okay when I wake up, and as the day goes on I slowly fall apart, I loose my footing and start slipping and start getting depressed, or my moods cycle around and around like a dog chasing it's tail....

I got some sleep last night, so I"m not hearing things or hallucinating today , I am very edgy however, and find myself fidgiting nervously, I was fidgiting around so bad today in class my friend sitting next to me asked me if I was okay since me tapping my leg is a nervous habit.

I'm up one minute then down the next.. I just don't understand why it's happening, maybe there isn't a why, I just want it to stop, I just want to be better, to be able to function like a normal person.....

[Hope]

Typo, Hi, I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. I am a listening ear my friend. I'm here for you. I want to give you my supportiveness. The medicenes have helped me a lot. Respirdal and abilify w welbutrin. I still want to isolate, hide and withdraw but something in those meds are giving me the boast I need. Energy to be able to do the things I need to do even to do a little of what I enjoy. I'm not saying it is all due to the medication cause it is Not. I'm in therapy which is very helpful and have supportive family and friends. I have made some really good friends from PC that I talk with almost everyday, it has helped tremendously. This is what is helping me right now and I'm doing ok. Whatever you can find , whatever works for you, this is what you must do. We are here for you Typo. Hope your day is going alright.

[deliquesce]

typo, what you described fits me perfectly. i hallucinate a lot when i get stressed. one thing i have found is that with the increased stress comes a lack of sleep, and that usually if i can get a few nights of solid rest that the hallucinations go away.

my psychiatrist has given me a tiny dose of ativan because it stops me stressing about the hallucinations, and also helps me enough to fall asleep and stay asleep for the 8hrs i need.

i wonder if that is something that can work for you? the basics (sleep, eat right, exercise) are so important and they help me manage the hallucinations that accompany my stress.