So, both my brothers have gotten engaged within a few months of each other, and now it seems they will also marry within a few moths of each other. I'm very happy for them,. Yet, it's not helped in decreasing my depression, I just feel like more of a failure. And while I feel gui;ty for feeling this way, I do. I feel like a failure. So alone, hell, I am alone- I don't often feel down but have been feeling more and more so than ever lately. I just was laying on my couch trying not to let my eyes well up with tears. I know, pathetic, right?
My sentiments exactly, I'm perhaps too hard on myself- but with no real social network besides my family, I don't really feel I have anyone to confide in. I recently ended thing in this loser relationsip I wasted four years on and now I'm going to turn 27 in a couple of months and feel like my life is going nowhere. Granted, I know people have things way worse than me in the world, and I'm not even that old really.- and so I keep telling myself to suck it up and stop being so damned pathetic, but I can't help but feel this way- my thoughts keep coming back to suicide- I could and don't think I would ever do it- but I just don't see my life gooing anywhere- the only thing I have going for me is my ambition to finally publish a book of poetry one day. I was thinking of that earlier today, on my lunch break from my loser job, but hey, it pays the bills. Damn, I can't even finish typing this

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Start writing again and never stop. Not only is it GREAT therapy, but maybe you could sell your book one day! Suicide is never the answer. I've thought about it alot. Remember that you are not alone

Just a gentle reminder, beating up on yourself serves no useful purpose. It is your life you are living. You are not in a life competition, unless you choose to be. Define your own values. Determine what is important to you. You already have one macro goal. Put some thought into the micro goals that will get you there.

Look in the mirror and tell yourself you are a good person--AND MEAN IT.

Good luck.

Thanks you two- I'm feeling better today- maybe it's working, keeping my mind off things- or maybe I don't know- (i work weekends) but thanks for helping me see things more clearly- I slept almost 12 hours- it helped. =)

Good luck with this, LabLover. May the good days be frequent and the others manageable.

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" I just feel like more of a failure. And while I feel gui;ty for feeling this way, I do. I feel like a failure. "

You know you are no failure so you should feel guilty for that!

"So alone, hell, I am alone- I don't often feel down but have been feeling more and more so than ever lately. I just was laying on my couch trying not to let my eyes well up with tears. I know, pathetic, right?
My sentiments exactly, I'm perhaps too hard on myself- but with no real social network besides my family, I don't really feel I have anyone to confide in."

Hey, what we are here for? Don't we make for a network or what?

I recently ended thing in this loser relationsip I wasted four years on and now I'm going to turn 27 in a couple of months and feel like my life is going nowhere. "

You learned that you can be alone even being with someone! Not bad at your age! And you still want to do something more than that job, that pays you the bills. I think the last one is great too!

What would you attempt do do if you knew you could not fail?

~Everyday is a gift.

Your words, lady!

Waiting for that book of poetry!