Is apathy a cause for concern?

This is my first actual post, but I thought I'd share what I'm dealing with lately..cause it's a little confusing to me. I hope its right part of the forum!

In a span of 2-3 months this past year, I had all of my music equipment stolen(been a musician 15 years) by my former band, was kicked out of my apartment...and lastly lost my job. Now, this where I get alittle concerned, because I don't really care about any of those events. I haven't been depressed either, strangely, I've been really content the past couple months.

And thats my concern, I know I should care, it's almost like something has broken mentally.

I'm not able to see a therapist (lost my insurance with my job..ha), just wondering if anyones gone through anything like this

I have always envied people who are able to fuction under adverse conditions. I was always taught to fight for things. For example, fighting in the courts to get an ex to pay child support, thus causing confrontation and thousands of dollars spent on lawyers. Or, making a school do what is right for your child, just basically fighting the system. I have seen people live so stress free like you seem to. I always thought they were lucky they didn't stress out. These are usually the calm people that don't say much but listen well. I am not sure it's good to show no emotion but if it isn't hurting you, leave it alone and I hope things start going better for you my friend.

Are you apathetic to the situation or have you taken care of things? Like do you have another job now? Have you found a new apartment? A new band? If you have moved on without dwelling on/getting too upset about the past, maybe that's a good thing. If you haven't taken care of these things and just sit around looking at a wall or something all day, there probably is a problem. You would best know if you are repressing feelings though, I'm just guessing at this stuff.

It sounds to me to be kind of like "shock" and a protection system. I did the same thing when I terminated a relationship of nearly 10 years, moved from my home of 13 years, left all my friends (at the old location) and changed jobs. For a period of 1-5 years, until I got familiar with all my new situations, I was kind of numb like you say, but not unhappy (I had some good things happening too; moved to be close to my boyfriend, now my husband) I just could "consider" things, couldn't go very deep in my head like I was accustomed to, couldn't tell you how I "felt". It was like I was locked out of the control room :-) but the factory was still functioning fine.

I would work toward therapy if I were you, as best you can. It was only 10 years later when I got therapy that I was able to understand that period and deal with all that had happened to me effectively and gain back all of my self.

Hi......and warm welcome to PC!

Just a bit of an "out of the box" thought.......

Could it be that you are actually experiencing "stillness" as opposed to apathy?

I wonder if the loss of all those things, means more in a positive light than in a negative one.......maybe they were meant to go?

It is very hard to accept loss, and you have had quite a bit of it......they are life changing things to happen to a person. But sometimes in deep grief, there are bittersweet overtones.

Be very, very kind to yourself......get help if you need it and it is an option, make safety your no.1 priority, and know that all things are in flux......I wouldn't be surprised if there is not something amazing on the horizon for you, and you are unknowingly getting ready.......by having a period of rest in anticipation of Spring, a time of growth and prosperity.

Take care and keep talking........

Michah

thanks for the responses. I have found a new place to live, still looking for a job...all my music gear is gone, so nothing i can do there till i can afford new stuff.

So it's about half doing something/half staring at the wall lol. I think the shock and protection system idea could be right on. I'm generally a negative person, at least to most...a glass half empty, or half full..has the same amount of liquid in it IMO, so maybe it's all just too much to handle at once.

If your music gear was stolen, have you made a report to the authorities?

I tried, its a complicated situation, long story short, I was in a band..we broke up the day after the gig, all the equipment went to the practice space..Problem is, it's 3 hours from my house, and I broke up the band, so none of the members would talk to me for weeks. So the problem afterwards, was I had no way to get it(my ride was usually the singer). Finally got it worked out to go up, and found out the other guitarist had it...and no one knows where he lives or won't tell me.

And, unfortunately I don't have proof of ownership for any of the equipment, so the authorities really can't do much

I'm still trying, it's been 3 months though..I imagine most of its already gone

i haven't read any of the responses, so i am sorry if i repeat!!

sometimes apathy is a positive reaction because it shields you from real, true hurt. sometimes to be apathetic is to survive, even for a short period of time.