[No_longer_sane]

I dont know whats wrong with me, so I decided to post it here. I have recovered from three month (roughly) depression, Im fifteen, a girl. I have no appetite whatsoever, aside from a little at the end of the day, but I feel full straight away. Ive always wanted to lose weight, but thats not why I dont eat, I just dont have an appetite. and above my stomach I can (not see my ribs, just feel them) and when I get really stressed out, more than usual, before I got home, had a shower and sorted and everything, and I could barely stay conscious, I just had enough time to lock the bedroom door and land on the bed, it sounds ridiculous, but Its because I got even more stressed out than usual and was worrying even more than usual, and I have these problems with memory loss, I cant remember a lot of stuff, even yesterday is really foggy unless I really concentrate, and a few days ago i cant remember anything. I can remember main events, weddings, deaths, names, who is dating who, my friend's problems and things, but a lot is blank.

It might be because I think it was major depression I suffered with, I had suicidal thoughts, and even remembering it for too long is triggering.
Sorry for the length of this, but anyone have any ideas what it is ? xx

[englishteacher]

Do you have a therapist? Are you on meds? The memory loss and loss of appetite are scary. Maybe you are falling into depression again? Please get some help from a doctor. If you want to talk about it, I'll listen.

[No_longer_sane]

I dont have a therapist, and arent on any medication, I think its because I made some new friends that I got pulled out of depression, but I dont think its coming back, it feels much different xx

[englishteacher]

Depression doesn't always feel the same for me, so just because it doesn't feel the same, doesn't mean you aren't depressed. I really think a doctor is your best bet - especially with the weight loss. Hang in there...there are plenty of us that will listen if you want to talk or vent.

I agree with the other responses. Please see a doctor. Feeling faint and having memory problems are likely a direct result of not eating. Your brain needs food!

[lynn P.]

I agree - since you're only 15, you need healthy food since you're still growing. If your appetite doesn't improve, please tell your doctor. I don't believe in diets - all people need to do is follow a healthy diet and exercise. Your brain and body needs food to function. The brain is the 1st thing to suffer with lack of concentration. I hope you feel better.

Please get help ((((((( No_longer_sane )))))))

[Sabrina]

Are you able to talk to your parents about what you are going through? They could be there for you and support you through this. (((no longer sane)))

[No_longer_sane]

Are you able to talk to your parents about what you are going through? They could be there for you and support you through this. (((no longer sane)))

My parents know I dont eat a lot, but they dont know anything else, I just have a problem with telling my parents, I feel awkward telling them, and they'll just say eating will solve it and that I dont need to go to the doctors, but I just feel full even when my stomachs making noises (embarassing lol) and I havent eaten all day :S xx

No_longer_sane, please talk to your parents again. Ask to be referred to a psychologist for an evaluation. That is the least they can do. The evaluation should convince your parents you are not just seeking attention or making things up.

Get past the awkwardness and talk to your parents. You deserve a better life.