[cherry.candy]

I am feeling really down.

and everything is happening all at once.

Im scared, confused, lonely, and in so much torment.

I just want to destroy myself.

[lynn P.]

((((cherry.candy))) - you deserve support and I'm offering warm, safe hugs . Take some slow deep breaths and try not to worry. You don't deserve destruction. Feel free to rant here as much as you wish, so you don't internalize your feelings.

[pegasus]

(((((((( cherry. candy )))))))))

I'm sorry you are feeling really bad. Has something happened to make you feel this way?

[Hearty]

Cherry, don't be sorry for asking for support. Please know that you are not alone. I, too feel the same way as you. It hurts so much, but it will pass...for both of us. We don't deserve to be destroyed...we deserve kindness and love - especially now. Please feel free to pm me if you need someone to talk to.

[cherry.candy]

Thank you for the support guys.

I dont even know what is wrong.

This mood jsut came out of no where.

Ive been like it for a few days. But its getting worse.

I just want to hack myself to pieces.

I dont think it helps that I have recently brought up something to the police, which they now want to see me about, but at the same time I have the possibilty of getting arrested because I kep carrying razor blades on me! And I have been arrested once already a few weeks back. Im just paranoid I think. Im going to see him because of the rape, but he was the one that got me arrested and sectioned last month!! So he knows what Im like so argh.

I need to stop thinking, jsut want to stop thinking for 2 minutes.

Its all Ive been doing. Thinking about horriblle things from my past.

Im in a really irritable mood as well I jsut cant stand being around anyone at the moment, well my family mostly.

Ive not been physically well either.

and jsut ARGH

[pegasus]

(((((((( cherry. candy ))))))))))

I just read your other post in the survivors forum. You have been through so much, I am sorry.

You can ask for a female police officer if that would be easier for you, infact they should offer you a female officer. You can also have someone you trust with you if that makes it better for you. I'm sorry what happened to you. You are very brave. Please know that we care. Hang in there.

[Sabrina]

Cherry, I am sorry that you are struggling with so much. Just want to send you some soothing and healing thoughts

cherry.candy, wishing you the best.

(((((cherry candy))))--sending out some heart-felt hugs, and positive energy---

Also, are you eatin? When was the last time you slept? and do you have anyone you can talk to?----------- take care of YOU!!!-theo

[cherry.candy]

Thanks for all your continuing support it really means a lot to me!

and Theo, I have an eating disorder so my eating is not great, in fact the doctor gave me some abd news today which has made my mood even worse, and just think what is the point? I am sleeping although I wake up extremly early.

I have rung my social worker, but Im just waiting for her to ring back, but as to whether she does or not is another thing.

Hope you can get this favorably resolved expeditiously, cherry.candy.

[beyond_blue]

Thinking of you.



An angel to watch over you.

[toniahoward]

WE would miss you if you were not here....I know it is hard...I feel the way you do a lot but it will get better their is hope....If you every need to talk to me just email me....Stay strong you can make it

How are you doing, cherry.candy?

[cherry.candy]

Still not good, really struggling, just about managing to keep my head above water, with quite a lot of tears!

Got to see this police officer again next week - but although he is helping me with this rape crime, I think I might get arrested because, I was arrested a few weeks back carrying a knife, and now Im doing it again, and he knows

Then I saw my doctor and he ahs diagnosed me with a mallory weiss tear, thanks to my anorexia and that has hit me really hard.

Then I have been self harming a lot, and thats frustrating me because I was doing so well.

Then I hardly have any support, because everyone keeps passing me around!

[twinkie21]

hugs cherry I am there too....

[ruffy]

(((cherry.candy))) Sending prayers up that you feel better soon.

Sorry the stress has been piling on, cherry.candy. Do you see a therapist too?

[kyangel_04]

(((Cherry, Candy))) I'm sorry you're hurting. I'm sending you lots of safe hugs. Take gentle care of yourself.

safe hugs, Patti

Please keep posting so we know how you are doing.

[Elana05]

Hi cherry.candy,

It's frustrating to have to keep asking for help. But keep asking.
You deserve it. You deserve to be out of pain. Keep asking for help. Do the best you can to give yourself the best care you can.
You deserve it...
Sending good thoughts your way.

E

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by Elana05

Keep asking for help. Do the best you can to give yourself the best care you can.
You deserve it...

I agree completely.

Yes, it is hard to keep asking for help. Rest and recover when you need, and then keep asking. Vent here as much as you like.

[cherry.candy]

You guys are so amazing.

Thank you all so much.

I landed myself in hospital yesterday - not nice.

But Im ok now, and under the crisis team, So I hope that I will get a bit more temporary support for now.

Hope you guys are all ok?

Cherry.Candy

Take good care of yourself, cherry.candy.