I demanded better treatment..& got it!

As most of you know my family is very apathetic towards my needs, and once again I find myself with no significant other to divide me from them, so I am stuck, unable to make enough money to support myself, and since they are millionaires, and have been helping me thus far ( well ever since I attempted a profession like my father's profession they have been helping..?) and now are renigging on any help, my T wants to meet with them...all kinds of conflicts came up with the schedule of the appointment, my mother did not understand why 'I' had a problem with 'her' ( she abused me financially and verbally real bad) I set that jerk straight, for the first time the words came, assertive words, for the first time..I have never been able to state my case or defend myself, have always let myself be walked over, but not this time..my mother finally admitted she had been neglecting me, even offered to spend the rest of the summer in therapy with me! Also offered to help out financially..(I work in an afterschool program which ended when school ended) (My parents will not let me live with them, so I have many expenses..) Whew spent the night at psychiatric emergency when my brother, mother, and father all separately yelled at me or ignored me..people have been saying no one could relate to a lifetime of this much pain...where is my husband about now? That boyfriend I had been writing about would interrupt cuddling with me to take his ex's calls in another room...**sigh** Perhaps we could still be friends, but I need a bit of time here...

So lots of drama, lots of tears, lots of pain, I dream about the kind of families that most are **sigh**

I am really hurting here.....keep checking to see if someone 'gets' me......dont have much time left on the library computer...

(((Junerain))))

Don't have a lot of time or I'd write more. But I wnated you to know that I read, and I'm sorry about all the bad stuff that's happenned to you. But I'm glad that you were able to finally stand up for yourself.

--splitimage

Aww June. First of all, I am truly proud of you for standing up to your mom. I know she's been hurting you for a while now and I think its awesome you found that courage!! Yea for you. As far as the boyfriend thing, I'm sorry. That's a shame he acted like that. But it tells me that you ARE wonderful and desirable and able to be in a relationship. That one just wasn't the right one for you.

Good for you, Junerain. I wish you the best.

((((((((Junerain))))))))

It seems that you are at breaking point and need someone to say "Hey there, I got your back". So I'm saying it "I got your back".

I've lived the same thing with what was supposed to be my family. But my family ended when my grandmother and dad died. Once they were gone there was no control over how or when my brother and mother abused me; I felt totally alone and as if I were fighting an unrelenting enemy on my own so I really understand how you're feeling and why.

It's very frustrating and painful for us when those who are supposed to love us just because we are family, are so caught up in tearing us down that they have no time to love us and worse still attack us and use our mental illness as a weapon against us.

You do have strength Junerain it's there right inside of you and if you can just take one huge deep breath you might feel some of it returning. It may not be enough to get you right through this alone, but you do have us here supporting you and caring about what is said and done to you.

Please take care, and please feel at least some support, from people who "get you",

Loving thoughts,

Rhia

Junerain

(((Junerain))) Good for you for standing up to your family.

Good for you Junerain. for standing up to your family-- I can sure imagine how much work it took to be at the point of being able to do that.

and I'm sorry the boyfriend was interruptive..... (maybe he will come around to see that..... )
I think it's good that you recognized that and kept your integrity.

soft warm kudos to you

fins