[Gleek592]

I have a doctor appointment today. I'm really nervous. I don't want to be weighed and I don't want her to feel my glands or anything. I don't want to be suspected. I don't want to be sent away. My Dr. is already fearful of me going away to college and that was when I was only purging 1-2 times a week. I don't want her to prevent me from going! Are there any ideas of how to just cope with all my feelings instead of SI and ED? I'm at a loss. Sorry for so many posts.

[sugahorse1]

I would suggest going to see a T. The symptoms you are talking about, usually come about as a result of issues that have not been addressed.

I notice your dx of Bipolar. Definitely not an easy one. Do you notice you other disorderes getting worse as your moods fluctuate?

I'm not sure what kind of doctor you are going to, and what for, but let the doctor help you with whatever your concerns are. The doctor should have your best interest at heart.

[Gleek592]

thank you for replying. yes when my moods fluctuate all the time i get frustrated and my other disorders especially the ed get worse. im going to my medical doctor.

[sugahorse1]

Do you have a pdoc to see for your psych meds?
Maybe those meds will need to be adjusted to keep you more stable, and in turn keep the rest in check?

ED and SI usually stem from underlying psychological issues, which need to be adressed with therapy.
Have a look at what other sufferers have to say in the ED and SI forums. They'll be able to give you some insight and support. And I too suffer from Bipolar, so I understand your frustration.

Think of this appointment as the medical appointment which it is - let the medical doctor do what (s)he needs to do, and leave the rest (Psychological issues) for a proffessional to address.

We're here for you - hang in there!

[Gleek592]

thank you so much for your input! I will let the doc do what she has to do. I do have a pdoc but i don't see him til August 23rd. Just started meds again.

[sugahorse1]

Hang in there, and let the meds do their thing. It will require some patience.
And try find a T you trust to help you work through the other stuff.

((((( Gleek592 )))))

Love yourself, Gleek, and MAKE it happen.

[Sooles]

not going might seem like the worst thing in the world right now, but consider what might happen when you do go.
in my own experience, when i left for college i was totally alone and there were a lot of new and unexpected stresses of college - so the purging changed from occasional to daily... im not saying that will happen to you but just keep in mind it could. your doctor is only keeping your health and welfare in mind.

[Gleek592]

yeah that's true. It's already daily but I honestly don't want to get worse. I don't feel like I will be alone though. I've met at least 20 of my classmates online and at RWConnection (orientation in the end of june). It feels like a really good place for me. I don't know though. I could be wrong.

[Rhiannonsmoon]

I wish you all the best..it is about you and what is best for you as opposed to what is happening with you. Tell your doctor what is happening and what is going on with you....if you want it sorted that is the only thing to do. Is it possible to being the Pdoc appointment forward to an earlier date?

Rhiannon

[Indie'sOK]

(((((((Gleek)))))))))) It'll be alright Hopefully this doctor's visit will be the thing that will jump start your healing process. We're all here and we care about you

How did the appointment go, Gleek?

[Sooles]

i was also wondering how it went!
if you think they could hold you back from going away to college, maybe suggest that you hook up with a doctor there that you can have regular check-in's with, or even a school counselor - eating disorders are a huge issue at colleges these days so a lot of them have support groups too! im sure you can work out a deal with your doctor and your family

<3

[lonegael]

Hope all went well, gleek. Been sort of lurking here, and I just want you to know I understand your fear, or have at least had similar ones myself. Let us know hwta happens! HUGGGS!