Kinda a big problem, please inform so i can reflect

Thanks for the info, interesting, very interesting indeed....

I think i know what is " wrong " with me. Could it be that my brain WANTs the chemicals released in relationships or intimate moments? I find it so strange that i absolutely do not WANT a girlfriend, when i think about it...The idea of a girlfriend a few things that come to mind are:

Weakness, vulnerable, attachment, compromise.

I leave it to the experts, but i think my brain has totally needs something but at the same time its keeping me from the thing it needs/wants.

So strange, i even stopd asking myself why havent i had a girlfriend all of my life? And even the idea of having a girlfriend brings a smile to my face " haha are you kidding? Me? " kind of smile.

This morning at the bakery this girl kept on looking at me, think ive seen her there before. She seems like a nice person, but i just dont bother doing anything. I just dont give a F. My boss keeps reminding me that i can " clean up" and he points out all the girls who apparently want me (trust me this guy is the biggest player in the world, so he knows).

I just see why investing so much of your time and energie (time being money aswell) in a woman..

Sounds more like 'trust' issues than not being able to love. If you have plenty of friends, you have plenty of love. Friendship is a different kind of love though. If you were to fall in love with a woman, it would involve intimacy. If it becomes full-time, it would involve the woman in your life. You would have to trust someone very much in order to let them become a part of who you are. When the right lady comes along, I imagine she'll be a friend first. Nothing wrong with that. Let yourself be for now and get and give your love and affection from friends. It will help you slowly develop trust in people and give you a support base. When a girl comes along that you really like, your friends will be there to help you take the next step.