I 'm sorry~

I am sorry I was ever born.
I am sorry I ever entered your lives.
I am sorry I cant do something to stop caring about all of you
no matter how hard you want me to.
I am sorry I make mistakes to hurt you .
But believe me , it bites me right back.
I am sorry I cant stop making mistakes.I guess its part of being human and my disorders.
I am sorry I need your support. If I didnt need it I wouldnt be here.
And if there are any other I'm sorry's I should be saying and have missed. Please let me know by pming me. I will gladly apologize to you personally or publicly here. I am not above doing that.

Thank you
Beth

Someone very wise once said:
"I AM NO LONGER A VICTIM. I AM A SURVIVOR! AND I HAVE THE POWER TO MAKE POSITIVE CHOICES. AND NO LONGER BE PREY TO THE INFLUENCES OF MY PAST. " (She's wiser than she knows)

Bad days are ok. You really haven't done anything wrong (to my knowledge). Beth, you can make mistakes. It is ok! It is expected! Caring for others leaves you open to hurt and thats the one thing that stinks. However, most of the time that caring pays off. You're a great person. Write that down and read that every day. You're one in a million.

Yeah well others would beg to differ on your opinion Erin.I have made many mistakes.

And it was my T that gave me that quote to look at everyday and I thought if I put it on there I wouldnt miss it if I were replying to my posts.Thats not gonna matter anymore.

Beth.....oh grrr.

Differ all you like, my opinion is MINE. MINE MINE MINE! Sweetie, you have to surround yourself with good karma. If someone doesn't appreciate who you are and how special you are, FORGET THEM! It's their loss.

You can't control other people or their feelings. You can only control Bethy. Be the best Bethy you can be and screw everybody else that has a problem with it.

I am so glad you were born.
I was fortunate the day you entered my life.
Please don't ever apologize for caring- i need people like you to care about me and i hope you know i care about you too.
We all make mistakes- you're right - that is definitely part of being human.
I am happy that you are here for support; if you hadn't come here i would have never met you and gotten as much support from you as i hope i have given to you.
You are loved my friend. Try to remember that.

I think you are a wonderful person. whoever is telling you this stuff is full of it!! you are a true friend!

But my being born, it was wrong it shouldnt have happened. It had to be a fluke. No one wanted me after I was here. I was and am a mistake.

no you are not a mistake honey!! God don't make mistakes!!

(((((((((((((((Bethy))))))))))))))))))))))

Beth,

Oh please understand that you are a wonderful person & you do understand that majority still rules here in America.....we all think of you as the wonderful person you are.

I am sure you have your reasons to feel the way you do, but I hope you will keep in your sight all the time that there a majority of us who:

Think you have the right to be born

want you have the freedom of speech here to enter our lives & provide us with your wonderful insights & support (only hoping we can return a little of what you give)

Know you are a caring person & that is absolutely nothing to be sorry about. The only problem sometimes is that when we care too much, we are the ones that end up hurting if we let it

feel that any mistakes you might have made are perfectly human & don't hurt us unless we let them....& that is not your problem.

Don't be sorry to need support, we all do sometimes most of the time, sometimes a little less of the time....but that is what this forum is all about.....you wouldn't have come here in the first place if there wasn't an internal problem you were needing to deal with.

The most important thing to remember is to not be sorry.....you have perfectly good reasons for doing what you do....whether the wonderful caring/support you always provide......or an oops mistake that might have been made. It is all acceptable here because we are all in the same place, doing the same supporting thing, & even the mistakes that we all end up having at one time of another. I have found that if I reply to something & the person doesn't take it as being supportive, I am not sorry for what I said because it was what I meant & felt was necessary to respond with. Unless I realize that I was really wrong it the way I took something, I will not appologize, I will just back off COMPLETELY from that person.

Understand that what you say is valuable no matter how someone else may take it & unless way out of line, you have a right to say what you feel.

Be good to yourself.....no need for apologies......you are wonderful the way you are & don't change that caring person you are. We would be lost if you weren't the you that you are.

Debbie

Beth,

You have rights, you get to make choices, you deserve good stuff. And if anyone tries to tell you different, just let us know. Cause I imagine a posse of us can just educate that foolish person otherwise.

You don't have to apologize. You get to have plenty of time to take good, compassionate care of yourself. When any of us take good care of ourselves, we help us all.

Sarah

I relate to the making mistakes and it biting me right back....... BIG TIME

Blech

((((( Beth )))))

In fact I do learn from my mistakes though...... but some, like my stepmother, don't believe in "forgiveness"

F******* them all!!!!!!

Beth, like I said to u the other night ... please don't say these things, you have been a wonderful help to some of us at times even if you don't remember just being nice and making others feel better (you certainly have done it for me).

ever need to chat, i am here.

xx

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Beth}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Beth, all these post should prove to you that you are well liked and well loved. No worries, ok?

Hugs,

Jan

"The only problem sometimes is that when we care too much, we are the ones that end up hurting if we let it

feel that any mistakes you might have made are perfectly human and don't hurt us unless we let them..... & that is not your problem"

THANK YOU for some wisdom in this mad world!!!!!