[Pditty]

Last Week things were going ok..Then I see my Pdoc..wants me to raise my depokte to 1500mg. the next day I was full of Rage and destruction..Sunday was the same.. Then Today.I went Nuts destroying every Pair of work pants Plus jeans and Shirts..I could'nt Control my self..

The pdoc told me Friday She can't Figure me out..That did'nt help.

I'm so damn tired of the try this Drug attitude..

I was starting to think of drinking again,(I did'nt) But the Thought Is there more than it has been before.

HELP.....

[shezbut]

((Pditty))

Not real helpful of your Pdoc to say that she can't figure you out! I *hope* that she was only trying to be funny, to see if she could get you to laugh at the situation. It apparently didn't work well, if that was her plan ~ I hope that she picked up on that one!

Depakote can affect mood. I took it for my seizure disorder, and it did boost my mood a bit. Like many other AED's, depakote can be effective for some people for various emotional illnesses. I'd simply describe the extent to which your mood has changed since you began the depakote to your doctor NOW. Call them up and tell them that it's having a strong effect on your impulses. That sentence alone ought to get their attention & help in getting through ASAP.

Very best wishes to you Pditty!!

[Rhiannonsmoon]

Hello pditty,

Obviously you are having a hyper reaction to the meds, as Shez has mentioned. There are other options but if things were going ok before you went up to 1500 of depakote maybe just return to the 1500 and let her know when you see her or speak to her that you had a bad reaction to the 1500 dose. Issue being some drugs accentuate mood, and that isn't a really good thing if one is feeling like an arseh*le is it? Good luck pditty, take care

[Princess_Obsidian]

Greetings,

Turning to substances, such as alcohol will only worsen the problem/s. You seem wise enough to know this, already.

Yes, it can take awhile for one to find his/her perfect match of medication, though, with the right attitude, as well as, patience, it will, indeed, happen.

Stay Positive!

Have a good one.

[Pditty]

Talked to my Pdoc..Stay with 1000mg of depokote. Plus she is sending Celexa And Ativan..

[Pditty]

2nd day in a row. I feel so much Rage I destroy Things. And by things It's clothing. If this keeps up I will have nothing left...

I'm so damn fed up with this, My head huurts 24/7..Body is stiff with rage, Scared to get dressed...What the Hell If this is how I will be living Part of me Says whats the point.................................

[Pditty]

I stopped the Depokote.. It's my 2nd day with out it in my system..
In the am I take 40mg Celexa and 1mg Ativan...Plus multi vitiam seems the seems that my thoughts and urges are Quieter..

[(JD)]

I hear ya. I have paradoxical reactions to most medications. It took years of going into hospital just to try a new med (because Doctor wanted me to) ...because it wasn't safe to have me try them at home. Well, that phase is past, but still have an occasional new med that comes out... grrrrrrr

Take your pants with you to the next Pdoc appt?

[Pditty]

Wow I spoke to soon.....Headache,,RAGE....The old feelings...I'm so Damn frustrated.
It is damn near impossible for me to get dressed to go out side...I'm getting to the end of my Rope with this ****,
The Scary thing is I'm thinking of Drinking More often since my Pdoc is usuing me as a drug guinea pig

[Princess_Obsidian]

Greetings,

Since my medical treatment is enforced, I must check into an institution for a few weeks, when I have to switch medications, so can they be there to observe me when I wean off/on to something. My treatment team says it is mostly to make sure my side effects do wear off, since I am sure to have them, at first. Of course, they told me, people can have side effects up to a year, or more, depending how their body is use to adjusting to medication. Having said that, if your body is use to you stopping the medication whenever a side effect arises, then it is going to make it even harder the next time, for your body to adjust to any other medication it is given.

It took my anti-depressant, alone, almost a year for my body to finally accept it, and I have no doubt it was due to my extreme on and off/start and stop, compliance in my past with anti-depressants. My anti-psychotic was switched almost two years ago and even though the side effects are not nearly as bad, when I started out, I can get them, from time to time, usually around my special time of the month where my body is normally emotional, anyway. Nonetheless, I am glad I stuck with my medication, because it is truly doing wonders for me. In fact, I now know why anti-depressants are nicknamed happy pills, for mine truly life my spirit and prevent it from lowering. It is awesome.

Please, you truly need to commit to your medication to teach your body to accept it. Yes, it may mean a few months up to a year of side effects, though, they will cease. If you keep going on and off, as I mentioned above, your body is only going to become more intolerant.

I hope you can find the right medication you feel you can commit to, not to mention, find a way to diminish your drinking appetite, once and for all.

Have a good one.

[Rhiannonsmoon]

Originally Posted by Pditty

Wow I spoke to soon.....Headache,,RAGE....The old feelings...I'm so Damn frustrated.
It is damn near impossible for me to get dressed to go out side...I'm getting to the end of my Rope with this ****,
The Scary thing is I'm thinking of Drinking More often since my Pdoc is usuing me as a drug guinea pig

Hello pditty,

see your gp and maybe ask for an MRI?

[lonegael]

Pditty, can you get to a red cross and ask for the old clothes that they otherwise have to have taken away? they stuff they can't sell or send to the emergency zones? You might be able to use those as a safety vent for ripping up when the rage comes. I know, it is not a real solution, but it might kind of be easier on your budget.

my mom was on depakote, and let me tell you, we never really saw eye to eye, but on that medication, she was after my throat 24/7 when we went to visit her, even my brother in laws were trying to fend her off me, and that is unusual. Therer is something about that stuff that sends some people rabid. Hang in there. I don't think your pdoc is experimenting, but this brain chemistry isn't easy stuff. HUGGGGGGSSS and good luck.