[Momo92]

The title tells it all, I just don't know how to handle things anymore.

I haven't actually been diagnosed with anything. (I kind of fear going to a Therapist, because I don't like to talk about certain feelings that I have worked so hard to suppress. And I have this thing where I feel like everyone is constantly judging me. So yeah, I would rather stay away from therapy.) But I know that I have problems that are not quite on a 'normal' level. I actually have a large array of problems going from depression, to anxiety, to really big social issues, to things like I can't stand almost anything about my body. I am not trying to self-diagnose, I just know these are all issues I have on a day to day basis. I found it was easier through high school to just hide what I was feeling about certain things and that seemed like a simple solution. But now I find myself dwelling on these things more than usual. My few attempts to try to talk to someone about these problems was with my mom who now wants to send me in for therapy and with my roommate here at college. She knows a lot about things in the mental area and I felt like I could trust her at that point. I know we have only known each other for about two months, but when your spending every day together... I just felt like I could trust her. Well, that turned out bad because she just became angry at me and now I don't really want to say anything else to her, because everything is just so awkward now. We aren't talking about much of anything now and I feel like I ruined everything by talking about my stupid problems. I wish I never told her because I was enjoying her company here...

So, I don't know what to do now. I am scared that I will be forced into therapy, and put on medicine. I know I should want to go, but the thought of going there makes me want to cry.. Advice would be greatly appreciated.

I am sorry to anyone who this would offend, seeing as I am not diagnosed with anything. I know my problems don't amount to most peoples problems here, but Im afraid I have nowhere else to turn anymore..

[bridgie]

this is a great safe place to talk about things. a therapist is a great safe place as well. just because you go to a therapist doesnt mean you will be put on medicine; you could try therapy alone first and then go from there. wish you well

[Perna]

Have you gone to your school counseling center, seen if talking to someone there can help? That's what I did "first", when I was 20. Therapy doesn't always involve psychiatrists and medicine. I would just see what your school has to offer, maybe talk about the break in the relationship with your roommate and stresses you're under and see how it goes. You get to control what you talk about; I'd see if I could find stuff out before your mother gets into it and tries to "force" you.

[Princess_Obsidian]

Greetings,

I, again, agree with Bridgie, for a therapist would be in your best interest. We, here, will do our best to positively support you, though, a true medical professional can not only find the underlying cause of your sorrow, but efficiently treat it. Of course, you would have to seek out the help yourself, to which I greatly hope you do so.

Stay Positive!!!!

Have a good one.

[Crew]

when you don't now what to do....

seriously tie another knot to beside the knot you were h olding on before now tie another one

and Hang on....

You are needed in the world, I may not know you but maybe I am suppose to know you.....

When in doubt or don't know what to do, this is the time to really hang on in my opinion....

and remember always that

Your new friend,
Crew

[dil5077]

Originally Posted by Momo92

... I just felt like I could trust her. Well, that turned out bad because she just became angry at me and now I don't really want to say anything else to her, because everything is just so awkward now. We aren't talking about much of anything now and I feel like I ruined everything by talking about my stupid problems. I wish I never told her because I was enjoying her company here...

So, I don't know what to do now. I am scared that I will be forced into therapy, and put on medicine. I know I should want to go, but the thought of going there makes me want to cry.. Advice would be greatly appreciated.

Hi momo,

It's OK for people to be angry at each other. That's a normal reaction to everyday situations. It does not have to be the end of your friendship with your roommate. You might both come around to an apology and work things out.

You have to decide what is best for you. Sometimes crying things out is the best therapy. You may feel better!

As far as feeling that everyone is judging you: sessions with a professional therapist can undo this belief, or help one cope with it. I've said some pretty awful things to my therapist(s), and I was never judged or kicked out. They understand us. I have learned to carry my experiences in therapy forward to the world. And I know that therapy is not for everyone...I don't understand how that is but I get it.
cheers, and stick around, share some more
dilly

[Frumpola]

i went to a therapist and found out i had tourettes. it was scary but i fouind out what was wrong

[Momo92]

First, I want to thank all you guys. You are being really nice and, well, I dont feel as if I am being judged. Its not what I expected. Plus Im glad you didn't take my post as whining about my life because I was scared it was going to come off that way.

And yes, there is a place on campus where I could go see a therapist if that is what I desire, but I still have to admit that I don't want to go talk to a stranger about my problems and just hope that they will understand. I mean, that kind of sounds ironic since I am talking to strangers on here but I felt there was a greater chance of acceptance here... If that makes any sense. But I do hope to get up the courage one day to go in and do what's right for me.

And as far as my roommate goes.. Well we are talking again. So thats a plus. But its not like it was before I told her. I think i am just going to avoid that topic like the plague from now on. Our friendship seems to work better that way. Although i am not sure I will be able to trust her fully again. At least not enough to tell her all the things that I want to. I still feel like she would listen but I cant trust that she will be accepting.. Not after the way she reacted when I tried to confide in her the first time. Is that wrong?

Thanks again..

[RyuB]

perhaps tell your mom you're going to try therapy, but you'd like to handle it on your own at first. that gets some of the pressure off.

my first session when i talked to my therapist and basically told her how terrified i was to do this and spent most of the rest of the time crying, she suggested the next time we meet, why not meet at a cafe and have coffee together. we did that, and it was such a 'normal' setting it made it incredibly easier to start getting to know her well enough to open up to her.

and another thing that really helped me, she would often tell me some funny thing her kids had done, or what she and her hubby had done on the weekend. it put us into a "friendship" relationship rather than "doctor-patient".

i don't know if it's against the rules, but after years of going to therapists and barely being able to say anything, it just bloomed and took off from there.

but one thing is important, you must find one you "click" with. if you get someone who makes you feel uncomfortable (other than the fact that you're going to the psych) personally, it'll be much harder