[jammerlich]

But I can't seem to say that to anyone in real life. I feel like I'm about to crack and have everything fall down around me. But I can't let that happen. I don't trust anyone around me to take care of me if it did.

I AM NOT OKAY!!!!!! It's so loud in my head you'd think everyone around me would be able to hear. But they can't. They have no idea.

[wisewoman]

I am sorry you are feeling so desparate, wanna chat? I hope you can reach out. How bout a hot line?

[kimmydawn]

((((((((((((((((((jammer))))))))))))))))))) i remember that thought and feeling not long ago. it's very scary. do you have anyone that you trust to talk with? t, dr, family member, teacher, friend, etc?

i know the isolation and fear associated with that.

keep talking to us. i'm so sorry that you're feeling so badly.

[(JD)]

(((jammer)))) I hear you, and plenty do here, sorry we are not IRL for you. It's tough to have to be an adult in taking care of ourselves. Isn't many of our wishes to be taken care of when things overwhelm us! You are strong. I think you have done well to tell us here. I hope you can find someone you can trust, IRL, maybe a support group? Keep trying! It's ok to be NOT ok ... we have to work at changing it grrrrrr

[misty]

(((((jammer))))))))))) hope hug ok.
lrks

[Parker10]

I am so sorry that you are feeling so bad right now ! Like already said, I wish we could be there for you in real life, but since we can't, I hope it helps some to know that we care and would be there if we could.

I can remember - many many years ago - thinking "I cant wait til I am grown" - but wow - its hard being grown! I am sorry those around you cannot "hear" that you are not ok.

Sometimes my brain doesnt remember things right - but arent you the one who started a thread on Scrapbooking awhile back? Being a Scrap-a-holic myself, I can use that wonderful hobby as a distraction when things around me are going haywire. IF you are the scrapbooker - does that help you too? While my computer was fried and new one being shipped - I got some really great pages made ! It amazes me when I get really into working on it how time flies.

I hope things are better for you soon, or that you can reach out to someone in real life.

[jennie]

jammerlich . . . do you have a counselor to say that to?

[jammerlich]

No jennie. I used to, but not any more. I don't have anyone.

[Gemstone]

{{{{Jammer}}}}}

I'm around by email if you need me.

[jennie]

i hope you consider finding another counselor. that's what they are for . . . when you trust no one else to help you, you ask a counselor to help you. are you able to do that?

i remember feeling that way. at the time, i was convinced it was a permanent feeling. however, i don't feel that way anymore. thankfully, i asked for help and was provided more therapy. i know i am better today because i made the first step.

[jmo531]

(((((((((((((((((((((((((Jammer)))))))))))))))))))))))))))

I know how you are feeling. I am so sorry. To feel so alone is the most horrible feeling in the world.

Please know that I am here for you. Anytime you need to talk. Your not alone. I am here for you. We all are here for you.

Huggles,


Jen

[jammerlich]

Thank you everyone. I don't know what else to say. The only thing that comes to mind is, "please help me!!!" But I know you can't. Only I can do that and I've given up, I think.

[ozzie]

(((((((((((((jammer)))))))))))))) I've been where you are and you can get thru this.

[cms39]

Sorry Jammer. ((((((Jammer)))))

[jmo531]

(((((((((((((((((((jammer)))))))))))))))))))))

More hugs for you. I know it's difficult.

[SleepsWithButterFlies]

Maybe this is s stupid question but if we could help you how could we? Like what would we be able to do to help? If we or you had say a magic wand...what do you need????

HUGS

[dottie]

Hi Jammer.

I have been where you are for many years. PM me anytime with anything you have got to say.

((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))