[demolitionlover]

I apologise if this post is in the wrong place, but there are so many issues i want to explain i thought i better just put it here.

After five years of knowing i have do have a problem with life in general, my new doctor has decided to do something about it.

Although he says that i must help myself else it just won't work, he's prescribed me medication (effexor) and is arranging for me to see a psychiatrist.

I know i've done this before, and i thought my counsellor and psychologist weren't so good, but this time i really need to get better because everyone i've used in the past to fall back on have had enough, it seems i've burned my bridges.

I posted months ago about living with my mother again, and how i thought this may make me better- being with her, but she is leaving again and wants me to stay here with my new boyfriend (who is absolutely lovely to me, i'm just scared of spoiling things) but i really am terribly scared of being left here in this horrid town with no one but a new lover.

I am only 18, and this will be the second boy i've been to live with. He is 28 and has two children.

Employment is scarce here and i think it unfair for me to just move in with him, with nothing to offer except dole payments -which is almost nothing a fortnight.I could get work if i really wanted to, and if i do stay then i suppose that's what i'll have to do- become a cleaner or a waitress again or something. But my attidtude doesn't count for that, and everything seems a waste of time. I just don't know...

BUT- what this post is about, is that i am feeling almost positive that finally a doctor has decided to give me a push in the right direction, and maybe i'll be helped afterall, and everything will turn out wonderful.

Am i being too optimistic too soon?

Again, i apologise if this post is in the wrong place.

[DaveyJones]

Hi, DL, nice to see you here!

Yes, I'm thinking that you should SHOULD be happy that you have a doctor who wants you to feel better. That is a great thing.

I hate the thought of you being left there with no one but a ne BF. Family is so important, and I'm guessing that doesn't make you feel particularly cared for.

I think the idea to get a job of some sort is a good one. As boring as it sounds, a job as a server is a good one for someone your age. You'll meet others your age on staff, and you will meet many other people you serve, and in a good place, you will make pretty good money. Plus, it can be fun. Also, what about school?

Whatever works out, I wish you the best, and I hope to see you around the forums!

DJ

Hi Demo,
Yeah, it does sound like it'd be a little frightening to be in a town w/out family around with only a new boyfriend to count on.
You may need to get a job in case things don't work out between you and your bf. So you'll have money stashed away in the event you need to find your own place.
I think it's always better to be independent-this way you won't feel like you owe anybody anything and they can't throw it in your face at a later time.
It's good you're happier with this T. She can help you through the tough spots. And no, I don't think you're being too optimistic. It's great that you found a doctor you feel is pushing you towards the direction you want to go.
Good luck with this.

[Maven]

It's scary and it's hard, but if you put your own effort into it, chances are, you'll be in a happier place in a few years. I might be if someone had done that for me. Your optimism is a good thing. It's hope. Your youth is the time to make your dreams come true. We're rootin' for ya!

[Lexicon78]

I think that this is a very good thing for you! I wouldn't worry too much about the employment thing just yet. You need to get yourself back on track before you can tackle employment!