[Indie'sOK]

Hi all,
I've been very preoccupied with my new job lately. Today I filled out the necessary paperwork, and I start training Wednesday. Something strange has happened in the past few days, though. It's like having this one thing to focus on has helped to put my issues in perspective. Of course I've noticed my anxiety - stress keeps me awake during the nights before I have to be at work in the morning. Still, I feel less and less like I need to analyze myself. I don't feel like I have to be on PC as often to make sense of what I'm feeling. I guess it's a good thing. I know my anxiety will be through the roof in the next few weeks between starting a new job AND a new school, but I'm not panicking to figure out why it will be. For once I feel, a little bit more, like I can go into therapy and work on the actual issue instead of the transference that keeps me from dealing with it.

I hope this feeling sticks around for awhile...a long while. Sometimes, honestly, the act of being in a constant state of self-analysis just gets old.

Good for you, Indie'sOK.

[gma45]

Originally Posted by Indie'sOK

Hi all,
I've been very preoccupied with my new job lately. Today I filled out the necessary paperwork, and I start training Wednesday. Something strange has happened in the past few days, though. It's like having this one thing to focus on has helped to put my issues in perspective. Of course I've noticed my anxiety - stress keeps me awake during the nights before I have to be at work in the morning. Still, I feel less and less like I need to analyze myself. I don't feel like I have to be on PC as often to make sense of what I'm feeling. I guess it's a good thing. I know my anxiety will be through the roof in the next few weeks between starting a new job AND a new school, but I'm not panicking to figure out why it will be. For once I feel, a little bit more, like I can go into therapy and work on the actual issue instead of the transference that keeps me from dealing with it.

I hope this feeling sticks around for awhile...a long while. Sometimes, honestly, the act of being in a constant state of self-analysis just gets old.

Thanks for your post. I cry tears of joy reading it. So glad thing are working out for you, You give me hope that I too may find an answer to all this anxiety and depression and who know what else!

[Indie'sOK]

Originally Posted by gma45

Thanks for your post. I cry tears of joy reading it. So glad thing are working out for you, You give me hope that I too may find an answer to all this anxiety and depression and who know what else!

Thank you Gma I know I'm a long way from having what I consider an "ideal" state of mind and anxiety level, but it's nice to have this little realization after going so long without any form of progress. I guess I just get sick of having a one-track mind.

[noneedtoknow]

Good for you!!!
What a wonderful revelation! It is wonderful when you get to the place you don't have to analyze everything-you get to just live! It is ok to let go and have a life!
Congratulations on your job-good luck to you! And may you have many happy, joyous and free days!!!

[gma45]

Originally Posted by Indie'sOK

Thank you Gma I know I'm a long way from having what I consider an "ideal" state of mind and anxiety level, but it's nice to have this little realization after going so long without any form of progress. I guess I just get sick of having a one-track mind.

It's always good to have something else to think about, I believe. Like I always tell myself just baby steps and minute by minute some days! Any progress is good as long as it is in the right direction! You go Girl!

[Indie'sOK]

Thanks Gma...I hope I didn't jump the gun a bit...I'm still having a hard time with my anxiety, especially right now. I'm worried I won't be able to sleep tonight. The issue itself hasn't changed, but I'm analyzing it less. I'll take that

[madisgram]

good for you, indie. i call those times mental health(y) days!

[Open Eyes]

Indie's OK,

It will be good for your brain to get back to learning and being productive. Once you get into a groove and get involved with being productive everyday your brain will feel happier. The lack of sleep at night is just apprehension, once you get in motion and you have gotten over training that will ease up. Try to consciously say to yourself that you dont have to analyze yourself so much anymore and you are ready for the change back to being productive and having a regular structure in your life again.

You have been wading in a pool of introspection for a while, time to dive in and swim again and enjoy the boyancy of becoming a part of growth and productive thinking.
When you go to bed at night picture yourself leaving that wading pool of sorting out your emotions and then picture yourself with your hands put together and you are now diving in and enjoying the sensation of the water lighten up your entire body and quencing
you with a new freedom. And think about feeling the lightness of the water caressing your body and arms and legs as everything about you becomes so much lighter and finally boyant.

Open Eyes