I dont know where to post this

So as you all know my life is a complete mess. By mess, I mean a disaster.

I didnt handle "J" leaving very well and that still weighs heavily on my mind. Just exactly what do I need to do about this. Well, I know what I need to do, but the bad guy on my shoulder is telling me to do it anyway. I hate temptation.

I want to go home which is actually becoming more of a reality. The house went on the market on Monday. Who knows how long it will take to sell, I just want to go home. We talked to father in law today, he said he will help us get home. We will rent an apartment until our place here sells and then perhaps look to to buy something then, in my area

I know it will take sometime. Talked to my friend at my OLD job today. I told her not to say anything to anyone but she couldnt help herself and told our boss (my old boss). So my old boss asked her if I was looking to get back to work right away, part time, full time??? I guess it seems I could get my old job back but I am not sure I want that but at least I know the option is there...maybe??? I guess I should call my ex boss tomorrow and play it off as casual. I do talk to her from time to time anyway.

Sometimes I feel like I create drama in my life because it is comfortable. I am used to it. I dont think I do it intensionally but I have been sitting back the last few days and keep asking myself if I have created the holy hell I am in and the answer is yes. I wish I didnt need the drama or chaos, but it seems that most of my life, drama and chaos played a major part, doesnt seem normal when things are calm. I am crazy as a loon

jmo maybe you could copy and paste this into relationships or another you have on this topic in general so it doesnt get lost in the shuffle...its on the same topics and folks can follow it easier maybe..just a suggestion...ALSO at least you know you create drama some folks never want to OWN that...thats a huge step on your part

Thanks Sleeps. Sometimes I get confused where to post stuff.

Why does chaos and drama have to be so comfortable?

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Thanks Sleeps. Sometimes I get confused where to post stuff.

Why does chaos and drama have to be so comfortable?

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I dunno JMO I myself am very low key so I don't know but maybe that can be a new thread in psych or general and the move and guy can stay in your other threads..so you can have order and be seen and heard in FULL

Jen, we are always attracted to that which we know best, whether it's good for us or not. Did you have chaos and strige growing up? I'll bet that's where you learned it. It takes times and therapy to change your inner, even unconsious setings so you desire and create calmness and peace within and around you.

Don't be so hard on yourself.

Love and hugs,

Jan