What a waste of a year

As the end of the year approaches I have to look back and realise what a waste it's been. Who's with me?

I lost my job in February and have been unemployed since.

I started looking for work right away, but after a couple of months my efforts just dropped off completely. I've been to two interviews all year. I did get my manual (stick) lessons so I could enhance my job prospects, but after that, it's been virtually nothing.

I just leave the house, maybe look at some jobs on the internet, and/or go to forums like this one, download TV shows, etc. And that's about it.

So apart from getting my manual license I haven't achieved anything this year.

This year I had the advantage of having a personal planner on my iPad, which helped me organize my life and get things done whether I felt like it or not. Unfortunately said planner was destroyed in June and I haven't got round to sending it to the store to get fixed. I probably need the personal planner to tell me to do it. Catch 22 y'all.

I look back at other years and I haven't achieved anything in those either, apart from having a job, or getting a job, which is something at least. My life's been an uneventful wasteland.

This year's been probably the most uneventful of them all.

I am so sorry that you feel that this last year was a waste---

I can get to that way some days as well- I can make it more than a year and say my life has been a waste--

but the thing that gets me out of that thinking (for me that is really a downer) but to think of the non-material things that I have accomplished

IE Either did more self reflecting, did not let people stomp all over me all the time, spoke my mind more, and always another year with my boyfriend is progress with me with breaking cycles from my past, and the list can go on.

I understand that the world spins on this currency called money- every where you do need it to survive- and it is sad and madding- but there is more to life than money I don't mean to sound like a cliche here but if we keep up on ourselves and keep trying that is always a good thing

You got your manual liscense which IS something- you have continued to enjoy some small things in life- Down load things and go on forms-

you have not totally given up which to me is a huge thing for a year that has been craptacular

I also find it helpful if I make lists some times-- Oh geez lists-- I have a ton, I have some lists that I lose, and some lists that only 1 thing is crossed off- and i have some lists that I got all that stuff listed done---- It does depend on how demanding I am with some things when making the list-- but the point is -- Start small on the list of things to do/accomplish- things that you control and that you can realistically do-
1) Send in Ipod to get fix (Does it have a warranty I am assuming- then it could be postage all of that cost right?)

I am not saying to make a New years resolution- I never look at these lists that way- and I am only mentioning it due to we are so close to the end of the year and to start a new one that I don't want that crap to be confused with this list idea of mine.

Of Course only a suggestion.

A personal organizer sounds great- I may look into something like that actually I have a small earse board on my fridge (dollar store for a dollar)-- and I write my stuff on there- Do DBT book- (that has been on there for a while) but Appts are on there and ever changing-- and if it comes to a time where there is nothing on there- well then I make up something that may be good to do for me -- Clean up house is one of them for me- but to each their own

I do wish you a wonderful end of the year and I DO wish that this new year brings you more joy than the last

Its not a waste if you can learn from the experiences and think of them as a lesson. Think of how you can make some attainable goals to improve this coming year. Dwelling on this past year, doesn't start you off well for the New Year.

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So sad you feel this way!! Would you tally in all the laughter you gave us all here on PC with your wonderfully deadpan thread "Walking My Spider"?

Just so's you know...I still love to go read that thread...still laugh...that was soooooo cool! gentle hug to you, Illegal Toilet! I am hoping you feel better about yourself in the New Year!*******Your contributions here are not a "Waste"--they are much needed!!!!! I raise my cup of tea to you in the New Year and hope all your dreams (or just some?) come true!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*************Pax---theo

I am going to get myself an iPod touch tomorrow, which has a personal organizer on it. I have found in the past that i am more likely to use an organizer if it's on a cool gadget cos it's an excuse to play with my toy. And i seriously got some things done when i last had such a gadget/organizer thing. To an extent that i seem uncapable of when i don't have one.

So i'm getting it tomorra.