[jbug]

I am having a rough time right now. I have some health problems that are adding to my mental health problems. It seems like a vicious cycle that just as soon as one thing gets under control and I get better then bam something else goes wrong and I get sick and then the cycle begins again.

I talked with my counselor at Arkansas Rehab Services today about my schooling. I am going to drop out for the semester and go again in the fall. It kills me to do this but I think for now with all that is going on with the old patterns rearing their ugly head its best for me. I am struggling though trying to decide if this truly is the best thing and I'm just running. I called my T and am waiting to hear back from him but if I don't at least I'll have something to talk to him about tomorrow. I AM MAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jbug

[Sabrina]

I really wish you weren't suffering with this. I can understand being frustrated and mad when you need to talk and you have to wait for a return call.

Please take care of yourself.

[Lexicon78]

Hang in there. I think that in the long run things will work out...it's just in the short term aspect of things that it seems all screwed up and like it won't work out.

[jbug]

Well my T just called. He told me don't do anything drastic like drop out of school just yet that we would talk about it tomorrow. I don't know what to do. I am one big confused ball of string.

Jbug

[pegasus]

janniebug,
I know what it feels like to want to give up on everything, but it sounds like you have a really good therapist there.
Maybe you won't feel so confused after you have seen your T and will be able to see more clearly what to do.

Hang on to your therapist, he/she sounds like a good one!

[Azalysa]

{{{{{Janniebug}}}}}}}

Know where you're at! Is this a full moon? Trying to make decision to return to work or not. So can fully appreciate your frustrations.

I care.....

[jbug]

Well it's to late now. I had a message on my machine when I got home tonight that I am officially withdrawn from school. I am scared about what my T is going to say. The school said that I needed a letter from a doctor saying I was withdrawing from school for medical reasons so that I could be reinstated in the fall. I do plan on going back so this isn't the end. I am scared about how tonight is going to go though...I am hoping my meds kick in quickly so I can go to bed either that or I will call the hotline for my clinic.

Jbug

[Greenleaves]

(((((((((((janniebug))))))))))))))))

I know how you feel about the school thing. You are smart to withdraw officially. I kept dropping all my courses and wasting thousands of dollars. Right now I'm barely holding my head above water with my classes. I missed my midterms because I was too afraid to go.