[megumi777]

First forum post, sorry if i mess it up....

Anyways,

I try to be an open person, not in real life, but online. So people know what is going on in my life so they have an explanation if i'm offline for a while stuff like that.

Well I was talking on my deviantart account about some issues.
I admitted that I've been seeing a therapist who now wants me to see a psyciatrist because of some paranoid delusions,(and some hallucinations but i havent told her yet)

I felt like I was clogged up my page we my mental problems

So I created a separate account to keep a log of whats going on with my illness.

Posted a notice on my main account for people to see and a good friend of mine posted:
"I'm considering weather I should give my opinion on this again or not.

Do I dare watch and keep track of how well your story keeps bending?Then in a few months bundle all the errors up and present them to you proving how unlikely it is since you can't even keep your story straight?"

I mean seriously? Why would I lie about this? My T thinks i'm going a bit out of touch with reality, WHY WOULD I SAY THAT IF IT WERENT TRUE?

If i wanted to be crazy i'd tell everyone i'm a self diagnosed crazy person.

And heres were it gets even more rediculous.

A while ago, I used to talk to this girl a lot, I listened to her problems, specifically, her delusion that she was actually a boy when in reality she is a girl and always has been.

I gave no shred of disbelief, and now, i share whats going on to the general public and i'm a liar?

As for keeping my story straight, Depending on my mood and stuff my views on things change, new problems appear, old ones vanish, things like that. Thats not an abnormal thing, the human mind is always changing, its normal for a "story" to bend around.

I know i shouldnt let it get to me, as long as I know its true but it really does, i'm so thin skinned


Ehhhh this is kind of turning into a rant, My appologies,

down to the question now

What do YOU do when people dont believe you?


..I for one get extremly upset and tend to yell at people eheheheheh....

Once again sorry if i posted this in the wrong place, really hope I didnt
If i did i probably wouldnt be able to show my face on this blog again..

[possum220]

If they don't believe me then I tend to shut them out.
Or alternately I accept that we can both hold differing opinions and leave it to the side.

I know what is going on inside of me.

Like the saying goes "People who matter don't mind and those who mind don't matter".

That's an odd thing for a friend to say. I don't know if he has any genuine grievances against you in this respect, but it's still a bit insensitive to make this attack when you've laid out your private thoughts for all to see.

I assume your 'diary' is also for your own cathartic purposes, and not simply to inform your friends? If this is the case you can probably tell your friend that he doesn't have to subscribe to your account.

Tell him that he can compare your entries in the written journal against each other to find inconsistencies. This will require that you let the journal tell the whole story and don't add to it 'offline', so all the facts will be there in black and white. This should at least end the debate as to whether your story changes.

[Fresia]

Thoughts and feelings are not facts and are bound to change over time, so there may very well be inconsistencies with regard to those and for most us as it is hard to remain unchanged in our lives. What matters is your own opinion and doing what is helpful to you in your own treatment and for your own health working with your providers. Your support network can be invaluable as well but it is primarily you that makes the difference in how you decide to value others opinions, no matter whose they are, and you can choose whether to give them a voice in your life or not. Truth within oneself by knowing oneself, and others will then know the truth in you.

[*freak*]

What do YOU do when people dont believe you?

I usually try to explain again/better what's going on in case there's some kind of misunderstanding. After that, if the person still doesn't believe me, I tell them that's their problem and I don't feel the need to prove anything to them. If they insist and they're being less than respectful like your friend sounds in your post, then I have only one thing left to say:
"kthxbai"

...and *freak* goes offline.

[roads]

Welcome, megumi.

I'd say, while you're figuring things out, keep posting & how best to state/present things.

"Belief" is often a matter not of belief so much as of
--presentation
--perception

So a lot depends on how I say something to you in the first place & how you are hearing me that day and others hear me. One may believe me but no one else. Go figure!

Who's right? Wrong?

Well, no one. Bad communication is to blame for an all-around mess.

Keep posting, & if I don't understand then I'll let you know that & you try again. How's that?

[shezbut]

I stop considering that person a friend and avoid future contact.

Don't know if that's the "right thing" to do, but I close my emotional doors pretty quickly.

[shallsam96]

Abso frickin lutely! I don't think there is anyone on that side that seriously believes in the deepest part of their brain that they are right.

[jc99502]

Originally Posted by shezbut

I stop considering that person a friend and avoid future contact.

Don't know if that's the "right thing" to do, but I close my emotional doors pretty quickly.

I agree with you. If they don't believe you, they never will. It's hard enough without someone calling you a liar when we all know we have a problem dealing with reality that isn't so pleasant anyway.

[mala]

This is a really tricky area, but I will try to help with my limited knowledge. The thing is that what is in our minds may not be true = that's what you have to remember. Dont be upset by this, a physicist or someone who is a top scientist can be wrong. I have to remind myself that what's in my mind isnt true, but part of my mental illness. Everyone is unique and has a different understanding of the world blah de blah, but its important to remember that whatever is goes on in the mind is a world in itself- thats why so many people with mental illness are deep thinkers; philosophers, very mystical and spiritual. However that is your world and not someone else's.
Hope this helps
mala