Why is it that when you’re ready the world around you is not and when you’re in bad p

Ok so not everything is in place and it’s only on a chance of luck thing that I may get a job if my interview goes well. However all the time I practice helpful techniques and feel better nothing happens. No matter how hard I try. Now because I am nervous wreck and all over the place but still trying because you have to, meaning job applying etc. Thinking its ok because nothing will happen so what does it matter if I am back to feeling awful. Then I get two interviews arrr. Of course at this point I have not given myself any help or better chance as I have let things slip and feeling at my worse I have ever felt, family are also adding to that worse feeling in my life and get me hysterical at best of times.

First interview didn’t go to plan and should have left the past where it belongs. It’s hard to explain why you are a so on edge and clearly in panic mode. However when you explain why that just makes things worse. How do you pretend when it shows as clear as day light what you are like as a person which at the moment is a person experiencing heighten levels of anxiety and doesn’t cope well with stress. Then you get that guilt like why did you even bother to apply and you wasting our time. However I don’t want to be unemployed forever just because I am of no use because of how I am feeling at the moment. Then other people are like it will all fall into place in time, you will learn, you won’t feel this way forever, it’s just the anxiety you are more than capable, you just need to get another job and then that will take the anxiety way or help show you that you can do this.

So now I have an interview but my chances are slim because of how I feel/ thinking now because I have warn myself down again and like I am going to feel better by overnight, although I would like this job but even then I probably would last long if I got past interview but at the same time there must be another job out there for me that I could do.

The college I enquired with never answered my calls and emails. So hoping now to try and get this job and apply to the better college in the next town for next year and hopefully still be working at this place if all goes to how ideally I would like things go. Another thing I done two days of volunteering which has helped a bit but that was for only 6 hours and involved no interaction with other people I was just sorting stock out that people gave to the charity shop.

However this could all back fire at me and add to my worse feeling and I could get myself stuck yet again at starting point with what seems like higher ladder to claim each time I find myself at the starting point then before.

Don't quit trying MiP. I've been around a while and at points in my life have had pretty bad problems with anxiety...I may know a little of how you feel. Couple anxiety with looking for employment and for sure that can be a pretty esteem robbing situation.

Don't quit trying. Even the most self-controlled and confident people have their moments...especially when they put themselves in the job market. The folks doing the hiring know this. The right people at the right time will see past that and see you for your potential. Just don't give up trying.

You do know one thing. You're a good person. Others aren't ignorant of that. The right people will see it and that's what counts.

you're gunna get a job. you sound ready and sound persistent. they can't hold you back.

Alot of employers are (_!_) when it comes to getting back to applicants. You just have to keep trying.

Hi MiP...wondering how you've been feeling. Just saying Hello. take care

Thank you for your reply and asking. I have be feeling sort of the same just stuck and not getting anywhere. This can make me feel safe and not too much in a panic but thats for the wrong reasons. However at the same time part of me wants to be over my feelings and back out there but another part doesn't even want to make the effort to get out of bed or face life. It's just those little things that can really bring back a whole load of emotions and thoughts and quite easily that can completely ruin and set myself back once again. However at the moment I am in the middle maybe at a turning point or maybe just simmering down on the emotional side of myself. Only time will tell. Wish you all the best

Glad to hear from you. It's tough to get out and about sometimes for me as well. I try to keep one thing in my mind and that's the fact that every day isn't the same in the level of severity. I'm thankful for that at least. I hope you're on the upswing for a bit and hopefully longer. I liked the fact that you do or have done some volunteer stuff. I was told I should do that and wish some day to do it. No matter what it is, it HAS to give a little purpose to things. I'm pretty picky right now because of the social anxiety. It's tough to relax. Some days it's easier though.

Hey MiP...Greetings and best wishes from Canada at 2AM. As I'm writing this the UK is probably eating breakfast or will be in an hour or so. Have a good few days. take care...!

Thank You so much and yer I am eating my breakfast and thought maybe I should have look in on pc before I start my day lol. I hope you get some good nights sleep! You are right it does change from day to day and all the situations and things that occur throughout your day and life. Sometimes though it's that struggle to allow yourself to take the steps needed to override your mind and thinking patterns. So that you can get back/ start again with life. I completely understand what you mean it is hard to relax and it only takes one thing to add to that and stop yourself from doing something. However the only way you start to change things is to do that thing you have been putting off. Of course you personally have to be in right frame of mind. Sometimes it's those other indirect things happening around you eg family that also hold you back or add to your emotions. This happens one to many times for myself where other peoples life’s just leaking into your own. Well when you get this depending when you next online it maybe morning so I hope you have a good day! and I will be wishing you well

Yes i did get some good sleep and the day went by in a flurry. heh...I had put off some things and finally did them. it was a sunny day and I was feeling pretty relaxed. I can't decide when it happens...some days are poor some are better and some are really good. Most are on the poor side tho.

So it's 5:30AM on Friday morning and I'm up an hour early for some reason. Slept early last night. A rare thing. I'm rested enough I guess. Looks like another good day coming weather-wise. I hope I can get some things done today as well. I always have a backlog it seems...champion procrastinator here! I can certainly understand the frame of mind issues. It's very tough to overcome at times.

Have a good day MiP and hope your weekend is relaxing. Not sure what the weather is like 5500 miles away or so but hope it's good. 5500miles??? That's what it said! Good God that's a long ways away. I just Googled the distance from Toronto and Heathrow airports to get a basic idea and yep...roughly 5500 miles! Ain't the moon closer??? Best wishes back to you MiP...later UK!

Thank You for your reply quizzickle. Good to hear from you. I am glad you are having some better days, I hope this carry’s on for you! It's weird because it's only just recently I have notice myself changing moods and how I am and behave but even so sometimes you just have to go with it and get it out of your system so to speak and wait for things to click back into place and hope things get better. I guess one way to view it is like when you first learn something everyone says one day you will be able to do that things without thinking, it will come naturally. Well I hope this can also be applied to emotions and feelings. One day I will be able to just function without getting so caught up in my mind and thinking, feelings.... ok this won't happen all the time every day. It would be silly to think that. However I would like to just be able to have a job again without breaking down due to my mind etc.

Its 11:46 here and tipping down with rain and strong winds English summers for you lol. It's how far 5500 miles wow it doesn't seem real. It's strange when you think about the world and how some people are waking up others have finished their day and it's bed time and other are in full swing of the day all at the same time lol. Now if anyone is out there imagine looking in on the earth see all that lol. Hope you have another wonderful day, Mip

Quick good morning to you and a goodnight as well....I've been awake up all night! I'll be up at lunch...supposed to be insanely hot here...30C and humid. Canada you say??? Parts of Southwestern Ontario are miserably hot in the summer. Sometimes with the humidity it can get over 40C. When I wake up it'll be...and there's no other word for it...'icky'. Have a good Saturday MiP!