[WhatNext88]

Hello,
I'm not really sure where to start with this. It's hard to explain what I've been going through practically my whole life so I wrote it down in a list and decided to post it here hoping someone might know what is wrong with me. First off let me say I'm taking depression medication and ADHD medication neither of which have helped me. I'm at the point where I don't know where to turn to get help. I don't know what to do. So here is the list of things that I've been struggling with:

1. It's hard for me to remember things.
2. I cannot hold an intelligent conversation.
3. I am socially awkward.
4. I can't finish projects or do simple tasks.
5. I'm unable to express my feelings without being awkward.
6. I don't have the willpower to do anything such as: school work, workout, read, cook, do laundry, see my friends.
7. All I really do is sit in bed and watch tv.
8. I've been fired from 2 jobs in less than a year.
9. I don't feel like I'm all "there".
10. I don't have a passion about anything.
11. I just want to hide from the world.
12. I can't focus.
13. I just don't seem to care about anything.

It's getting harder and harder everyday for me to put on a straight face and tell people I'm okay because deep down I'm really not.

If anyone has gone through some of the same things and has been able to turn their life around somehow I would appreciate any advice you have.

Thank you!

[yellowted]

i get like that whenever things are getting on top of me, be careful it sounds like you are describing the road to depression.

[Miswimmy1]

i would say depression or ADD

i dont think getting medicated on drugs is the answer for u, they can take away energy, and it sounds like u need all the energy u can get,

goodluck!!

I agree that it sounds like depression. I would try a different medication. If you are getting your meds from your primary care dr., ask for a referral to a psych dr so that you can get a proper diagnosis and the correct treatment.

[brackenbeard]

1. It's hard for me to remember things.

That's fine. You've got bigger things to fry.

2. I cannot hold an intelligent conversation.

Again, bigger fish to fry.

3. I am socially awkward.
Ok, so you're socially awkward. Do you really think that matters that much? Be socially awkward, and **** around, play, joke, laugh, cry... embrace it. I guarantee that if you roll with the awkwardness you'll be fine. You might even find that if you can laugh at yourself that awkwardness might not be such a problem.

4. I can't finish projects or do simple tasks.

Can you muster up the energy to do one thing a day? Start by stating clearly what you want to accomplish... don't get distracated now... c'mon and get it laid out... you got it, don't pick up that damn remote! one thing grrrr... get it!

5. I'm unable to express my feelings without being awkward.

Express your feelings despite being awkward. It's therapeutic. What's the worst case scenario. You were awkward? Man being awkward is okay. I wouldn't get too hung up on what people think of you. You do what you do, and what comes natural... don't worry about being awkward, try and roll with it. try and laugh at yourself a little.

If your biggest problems are awkwardness... and depression (which is no-doubt serious)... you'll find by reading in this forum it ain't that bad. Check out what some of the schizophrenics have to go through. You might feel a touch better.

[thickntired]

2. I cannot hold an intelligent conversation. I often feel like this!

3. I am socially awkward. Yep

5. I'm unable to express my feelings without being awkward. Yes, or I decide the day of the event that I will mess up royally. And in my dreams I mess up.

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8. I've been fired from 2 jobs in less than a year. I was laid off from 2 jobs in 1 1/2 years.

11. I just want to hide from the world. Yes, I want to hide from it all the time.

Hmmm good advice? Probably to be clean, exercise/diet healthy . social interaction everytime it is possible. I'm not a Pdoc, obviously, this is clear as mud

Peace & Hugs,

TnT

[roads]

Welcome to PsychCentral, WhatNext. You've done analysis of where you stand. What seems clear to me is that you're withdrawing for the world ... and maybe from life. Whether that's because of depression or is causing depression, I don't know.

I think the first thing you might consider is a thorough physical examination to be sure there's no underlying medical condition at the root of your situation. A slightly hypothyroid state, for example, could be to blame. Other things. I'd start part there. How long since you had a head-to-toes work-up? Unless mental illness runs in your family, odds are you're going to find your answers here.

If your primary care doctor finds nothing, and whether or not you have hereditary depression, etc among relatives, ask for a referral to a diagnosing psychiatrist. Make sure it's diagnosing doc, someone who can evaluate in a broad range.

I hope you'll check in here often. Feel free to explore the forums and post anywhere you find a connection.